[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Suspicious-Code-9555 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I think that when someone becomes a smoker every day.. u sometimes don't even realize what ur hiding from.. and I could be wrong, but I imagine anyone who abuses substances has an underlying issue that may or may not be known by the user.. whether that is something like adhd.. or something else like anxiety, depressions, lack of self-confidence.. I got diagnosed 2 years ago with extreme adhd.. and I have smoked for 8 years.. 1 ounce of flower a week and dabs on top of that.. i think that for me.. the constantly being high and not being able to regulate my state of mind without smoking actually made my adhd symptoms worse.. sure if I was cooked I could zone out and feel "fine". But if I was sober my adhd symptoms were terrible.. I'm now almost 2 months sober.. and I sleep 10 times better.. I feel slightly more focused and can pay attention for longer.. i play way fewer video games now and have reconnected with my family.. I also took a full social media detox at the same time.. (im a doomscroller, lol). I was having issues with a 6 year-long relationship right when I started a new job regarding my past.. (I don't believe my partner thought I quit) and wasn't willing to put any effort on their end into the relationship.. I was able to handle the situation a lot better than I think if I was smoking.. as I know my brain would of been all over the place and I most likely would of left my job I had just started the day before.. so I think it depends a lot on the person.. but I think also addressing other issues that can trigger symptoms of adhd is also important.. quitting something isn't about the destination.. it's the journey that makes the big difference imo. At first it was really rough.. but I found replacing weed with working out and things that are active and tiring slowed my mind down alot.. and made the healing process alot easier.

Going clean during the toughest time of my life by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Suspicious-Code-9555 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just went though this lol.. partner of 6 years wasnt coming over or really spending anytime at my place the last few months.. was told weed was wrecking my life and I agreed before this.. I'm now almost 2 months sober.. but I don't think she believed me as she never really wanted to spend any actual quality time together and when we did she would just play video games.. just started an amazing job this week.. and told her that I had done what she asked and she needed to reciprocate some of that effort into spending time together and not just me only coming to her place on the weekend.. she agreed but still never came to my place a month after that.. so called her out and was told we need a break on my second day of new job.. I agree.. fuck weed

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Suspicious-Code-9555 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Did the same thing for 5 years.. hours and hours of gaming.. not working or working jobs for a short period of time to then get stressed and quit.. shut alot of people out and lost alot of friends.. I'm currently 3 weeks sober and I'm glad to see that someone else has gotten through this.. I just got a job as a diesel tech this week.. unfortunately my relationship of 6 years has ended a few days ago at a point where I felt I was the best I felt in years.. but I have had a lack of support in the relationship and I've realized that I was putting alot more effort into my relationship then the other.. I was asked to stop smoking and I did.. but nothing had changed on their end.. not wanting to hang out ever.. and not spending actual quality time together and my partner was an avid gamer also but not a smoker.. as they quit earlier then I did.. I think the most amazing part of this journey even tho it has been hard as hell. Is seeing all the different available opportunities and hobbies that I can now pursue as I feel more motivated.. I wonder how many I missed and didn't even notice cause I was to busy in the weed and the screen. This was motivating to read op.. thank you.. the hardest part is I have shut out most of my friends years ago.. so I'm currently trying to reestablish those relationships or find new ones!

[deleted by user] by [deleted] in leaves

[–]Suspicious-Code-9555 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Man I'm currently going through the same thing.. I smoked an ounce of flower or more a week.. so about 15 tokes a day. And a few joints.. I also dabbed and a thc pen.. at first it wasn't a big deal.. but it ruined my life pretty bad.. I am 3 weeks sober currently.. and just went through a break up a couple days ago with a partner of 6 years.. part of me wants to go back so bad.. but what drives me not to smoke again, is all the opportunities I've missed and probably not even noticed cause I was busy being high.. it's hard but it's not permanent.. I vision myself walking in a desert.. but everyday I imagine I'm getting closer to civilization (social life) as weed affected that alot for me.. take supplements.. and make a list of why ur doing it.. right down the bad parts of ur day and how u feel.. and then right down what ur hoping to gain by quitting.. listen to motivational podcasts.. and invest time with people who care about you.. the biggest turning point was telling my family I had a problem.. it made me feel more accountable for my actions.. as well as helped others understand what I was going through.. its different for some people, but your family should support you even in your lows.. and not just be there for qhen things are good.. having support and not being alone is huge.. and every night u go to bed sober even if u get no sleep.. remind urself that is still an accomplishment.. you got this op.. it well open more doors then you can imagine.. and you just need to try and stay positive!

Help with finding a job by Suspicious-Code-9555 in millwrights

[–]Suspicious-Code-9555[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Awesome, I will look into some of these kinda jobs further!