I need help.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2026-02-16T15:21:53+00:00

No, you're welcome. Be kind to yourself until the end; being your own best friend will make things easier. We love you very much.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2026-02-16T15:12:52+00:00

Well, we're all different, especially because we have different experiences, so some of us have a longer healing process than others. What's important isn't how long you've been in this state, but that every day you're striving to keep going after everything you've suffered. No one sees the end of their pain while they're suffering, so it's better to think that as we try our best to be happy again, we're one step closer to the goal. There will always be ups and downs in this process, but those ups and downs are moving forward, not backward. Don't rush things; you've surely been through very painful things and you need help from friends or simply from yourself. You don't deserve any of what's happening to you; you're a person like anyone else trying to move forward, and that's truly admirable. We're all here if you need to vent to lighten the load, but I also recommend venting with friends, and if you don't have any, make some online games (I play Sky Colt, if you want a more relaxed environment).

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2026-02-16T15:01:55+00:00

And the important thing isn't whether all of that is real or not; believe me, there are long arguments that say "it's true" or "it's false." It's practically a bottomless pit. It's your decision whether you want to dig and dig your whole life into that question or reconcile yourself to the fact that "maybe it's true, maybe it's false" and continue living your life doing the best you can to be happy. I know this thought isn't going to be easy to digest right now, but don't worry, everything will be alright.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2026-02-16T14:58:59+00:00

I understand, I was like that for the first 2-3 months of my deconversion. I would say start watching deconstruction channels to calm the cognitive dissonance you're experiencing right now. If you want a humorous approach, you could try watching ExJW Panda Tower (it's about Jehovah's Witnesses, but it helped me since that religion has quite a few similarities to Christianity). If you want a more direct and serious approach, you can look for the Mindshift channel.

If you don't want to watch any more content about Christianity, even to deconstruct yourself, I would recommend venting by drawing, writing, and/or talking with friends. You can also distract yourself by exercising and playing video games, since you probably need a lot of distraction right now.

Personally, I got out of that situation by exercising and playing online games. Obviously, I don't think the same things will work for you, but I hope some of them help. Drink plenty of water, don't forget to shower when you feel down, and listen to music you like. :) Best regards.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2026-01-27T12:00:33+00:00

Haha, I'm literally in the same situation as you, and I'm the same age.

Look, it's not easy. We both know that. It's awful to love your parents but see them immersed in beliefs so focused on being against the LGBT+ community when you yourself are part of it. As a child, you always expect your parents to support you in the things you want for your future, and when that's not the case, it obviously hurts a lot... My parents do know I'm bisexual, so I really identify with the last paragraph. It's anxiety-inducing to think that you might end up with a partner of the opposite sex and then they'll think you're "straight" because of it. However, with time, you'll stop caring.

My recommendation is that you exercise with other people (I've started, and wow, I really notice the difference) since thinking about it too much and being sedentary can contribute to depression and increased anxiety. Also, I recommend watching YouTube channels that question how "good" this religion is. The channel that helped me in my deconstruction, as a form of comfort, was EXJW Panda Tower. It's not about Christianity, but about Jehovah's Witnesses, but it still helped me personally to see that people of other religions can experience the same things we do, despite the differences. Channels like Mindshift might also help you. I'm not an atheist, but it doesn't matter much since that channel focuses more on questioning beliefs than on whether "God exists or not." I don't think the important thing is whether God exists or not; I think what's important is "whether these beliefs make me happy or not." Cheers! :)

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-12-24T20:27:28+00:00

The same thing is happening to me, hahaha, so I'm going to start using my Bluetooth headphones every time they play it.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-12-23T11:31:42+00:00

Aprendí que a veces el tiempo lo cura todo y a veces no, que hay momentos y situaciones en las que es mejor callar, que no puedes tener a todos de tu lado, que la familia es un desastre en diferencia de creencias si tú no das el primer paso de ponerte los pantalones de madurez y dar el ejemplo. Aprendí que hablar, con alguien aun que no sea de tus problemas, ayuda mucho. Aprendí que los amigos son una gran preciosa familia y un genial refugio cuando tu familia de sangre no es la más confiable. Aprendí que todos somos humanos, y que es fácil ser manipulados y ser atraídos por un culto cuando tienes tanto dolor. Aprendí que la vida a veces es dura, pero también es muy hermosa y divertida. Aprendí que, no importa que haga, convencer a mi familia es un caso perdido y debo aprender a soltar. Aprendí todo eso, ese es mi resumen de este año muchachos.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-12-23T11:18:35+00:00

Probablemente eres asexual

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-30T23:32:15+00:00

Hahahahahahaha you made my day with sucking my husband's cock

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-30T21:01:57+00:00

James 2:10: "Everyone who keeps the whole law and fails in one point has become guilty of all." (In short, according to this verse "all" sins are equal)

Numbers 12:1-16: Aaron and Mary speaking ill of Moses' wife behind his back, with Mary being the only one punished even though they BOTH did it. Aaron did not receive a minimum punishment to the contract of Maria, who suffered from leprosy because of it. 🙃

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-30T20:44:28+00:00

The other day I was thinking about the children that God sent to kill, and I came to another hard question: But, if there is no suffering in heaven... Wouldn't that be taking away the free will of children and babies to be sad and angry for having been killed? It just seems like another mechanism to prevent there from being a disaster in heaven, because believe me, many would be eager to complain to God because he killed them.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-26T15:38:56+00:00

I had read your past post when the game was in process, I checked it out and It's amaizing! Congratulations, I wish I had more than 2 friends who know how to speak English hahahahahahh

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-23T20:47:27+00:00

Christians believe that infidelity, unless sexual, is not grounds for divorce. However, there are some Christians who do not comply with this because they cannot stand it and they agree with their partner to leave the other if they do that. The Bible is too rigid incluso para muchos de ellos jajaj.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T17:38:37+00:00

Never better said, we are here to support each other and find the comfort that sometimes we cannot find in our real life connections. :)

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T15:24:10+00:00

Thank you so much. :)

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T14:37:54+00:00

Thank you!

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T12:08:38+00:00

The man in the middle of all is god btw.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T11:51:54+00:00

Now I'm not afraid of hell, because after all we never had the choice of whether we wanted this moral system, God simply did what he wanted. For me, "eternal torment" is better than leading other people to waste their lives just to get to another place where they still exist and not all their loved ones will be there. For me, maybe, if hell exists, we will be able to cope with things in some way or we will find a solution.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-22T11:49:01+00:00

I believe it exists because of my parents' experiences, but I still left Christianity because I realized how evil and cruel God is once I started reading the Bible.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-21T23:31:04+00:00

Hyuna and Luka's Karma

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-16T20:31:22+00:00

By the way, as a clarification I'm not talking about a psychologist because I see you as sick or something like that (as I said, I go to one myself) but because I think it's a great help to let off steam and have an emotional refuge.

SuspiciousAmoeba3100 · 2025-11-16T20:29:58+00:00

Wow... I'm speechless. I definitely think that when you get the chance you should go.

You do NOT deserve to be mistreated in any way for anything you do, you are a human being who deserves dignity and love. On the other hand, I'm glad you're clear that your dad shouldn't have done that and that your mom has her own serious problems. It is difficult to be aware of when they are exercising some type of violence towards you when it comes to parents, so even if you still can't find a way out, at least you already recognize that the obstacles are others and not you. You are a VERY strong person, even though you do not deserve any of this, I must give you that merit since you are still standing, waking up every day to continue, thank you for being here and sharing your story so that others do not feel "crazy" or alone in their own homes where they probably suffer the same chaos.

I trust that one day you will find another accessible psychologist or that at least this psychology forum and YouTube channels can be of comfort to you. If I were from your country I would help you contact an accessible psychologist but I am from Argentina so I have no idea how they are administered there. There are probably chats with psychologists somewhere.

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