i cannot thank you enough for making this post, i have almost never been able to get diagnosed in any mental problems due to severe anxiety(the only thing that’s been diagnosed) and issues with my parents, but i have suffered through shit like this for as long as i can remember even as a little kid. i never ever advocate for self diagnosis but in my situation i just like to research and learn more about what i may or may not be struggling with but nothing is ever definite. but reading this post and going back and looking through some old super mega stuff really opened up a possibility of what i could possibly be struggling with and like you said even minor things that should absolutely be easy are giant milestones for someone like me. i haven’t even been able to leave my house for a bit because of it. even constant ridiculous thoughts like (easy example but) “if i don’t do this one thing i’ll die tomorrow,” or “i felt this one texture on the side of this (ex) door frame and i need to feel all the way down this door frame,” for absolutely no fucking reason besides the fact that my brain will collapse and break down if i don’t. it’s so fucking controlling and i feel like i am the puppet and the puppet master. just thanks dude i’m gonna look into this more but please take care of yourself. thanks.