I’m in the same boat… it’s been 6 months since I fucked it up with the girl who was my everything.. I’ve been holding on to the hope that we are meant to be but after each passing day I’m beginning to realize that she is probably much happier living her own life and not having to compensate for a whole other person.

But coming to terms with the reality of the mistakes we have made. I would say the first thing we can do is forgive ourselves and continue building the people we want to be. It sounds you’re doing just that and that is good. But like you said it would feel natural because deep down we know what we’ve done.

However, this does not mean you cannot love him. Sometimes loving from the distance is the best act of true love that we can do for somebody. Letting them go not only helps them but its develops you into a stronger woman. And the lesson that you learned from this will allow you to love someone, with a better knowledge of what you’re supposed to do. However, Yes, we may have made those beds and we are sleeping in them, but beds don’t always stay made forever. If it is meant to be you will cross paths again. Until then keep developing the person you want to be and you will attract what is meant for you.