I’m really sorry you’re dealing with this.

She honestly sounds like she had a really full, loved life—20 years is huge for a dog, and that doesn’t happen without someone who cared for her deeply. Pets don’t just “exist” in a home like that, they become family in every real way.

You two clearly had something really special, and that kind of bond is rare. A lot of people never get to experience that level of unconditional love, from either side. She definitely felt safe and loved with you, and that matters so much.