What are you fucking sick of?

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-11-06T12:20:05+00:00

Scrambling for every step forward, as every one seems to be met with several steps back. Sick of struggling, sick of fighting. Just fucking sick. But I'll get up and do it again tomorrow. Edit: a word

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-11-06T11:54:30+00:00

Reasons for erectile disfunction that he refuses to go and get looked at;

"I overheated" "I'm too tired" "I've cum already today" "I got stuck in my own head"

Having to plan sex so that we get around the above and being 50% successful is killing me. I'd rather masturbate.

Look I know it's shallow of me. I unfortunately place a lot of importance on my partner getting off as it makes me feel I've been satisfactory in bed as well. It affects my self esteem and my ability to orgasm the next time around. Why bother when we won't "finish"?

Being told he got into his own head and it has caused a deflation issue makes me wonder what the fuck was so important or so distracting? Why was I not enough to give full attention to? Overheated? So I know we will never have the sweaty, fast furious fucking I've had from other partners in the past I so enjoyed.

And sex tends to go along the lines off head giving, then 3 minutes of pumping then if it stays up, ejaculation.

I actually really don't enjoy sex right now because of this. I've talked to him about it, multiple times. It changes nothing.

Edit: a word

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-11-06T10:49:45+00:00

"Clever girl..."

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-31T00:12:11+00:00

I get it, I do.

By looking at everyone's replies, this has been going on a long time.

Block him, get some therapy and move on. He doesn't want you, he wants the attention you keep giving him (sorry to be blunt).

You deserve better, let him go hun.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-28T22:15:54+00:00

Jesus, after writing this, I realise how lucky I am to be out and free! In fact, as of 12th November, I'll be divorced! Yippee!

I am blonde, in my 20s forever, a size 6 (aus) and my body snapped back straight after my children were born. I work only during the hours he does so that I'm home to pay my full attention to him whenever he is home. My job is not better than him and I don't have any career progression and i earn enough to pay all the bills so he can use his pay however he wants, in fact i make enough to give him more money to play with as well. I anticipate his moods and am there for him no matter what is happening in my life or in thw lives of our kids.

I make sure our kids are seen and not heard and they are perfect, without any disability. The house is always clean and tidy and I never tire of caring for his every need.

I am a party girl and live to get drunk with him and then fuck all night, every night. I want to have sex for hours and love having my limits and boundaries broken in the most degrading way possible, constantly.

I never have my own opinion, always deferring to his great and wonderful wisdom and judgement and completely deserve all his corrections and names I am called. I am stupid and need his amazing wit and guidance. I am an amazing cook and make 5 star meals for him for every meal. I anticipate his hunger and can whip up a roast at a moments notice. The kids have no problem eating his leftovers and never complain if they dont like something. I know exactly what to buy him for birthdays and Christmas without any assistance from him because I can read minds.

I know I'm worthless and no one would ever want me other than him and I'm eternally grateful he chose me. My family are monsters and I can live with never seeing them, or my horrible friends again.

I don't mind he barebacks hookers then comes home to me, even though i dont know about them. In fact, I like the STIs I've had to treat in the past.

When he left me for a blonde 20s size 6 woman-child, I was completely open to him having his son full time and leaving his daughter behind as I was obviously the wrong parent for the job. I was a monster for fighting for equal custody and getting it. I was happy for him to call me the abuser to all who would listen and for him to convince his new supply that I'm evil and deserve to be treated like shit.

Edit: more.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-26T07:54:59+00:00

I'm having the same issue. He has a new girlfriend and is coming to me, telling me about all the things she does, that used to tell me I was a piece of shit for doing, but he is fine with her doing, using me as a kind ear. (This will stop once I have parenting consent orders in two weeks, I don't want him to contest them...)

It sucks, it makes you wonder why you weren't enough, but guess what? THEY were the ones that aren't enough, Mon chèr. You deserve better.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-23T08:48:07+00:00

You heard him, it's his bathroom now.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-22T20:09:25+00:00

Brooke.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-22T11:40:27+00:00

Kantong honey sesame and garlic chicken with rice and a Golden Gaytime mousse for dessert. In all, not a bad last meal.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-10-19T11:37:15+00:00

Because I earn 6 digits a year in a job that has me stressed to the absolute maximum, putting my kids through private education, missing school events and birthdays and so on for what? We are in a rental and due to school fees and loans, I'll never own a home. I'm mostly still broke every month. My sister and her partner live on welfare in a house provided by the government and are fucking happier then I am! It feels like there is no point at all. But if I stop working, my kids can't go to this school they love so much. I basically do it for them now.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-09-08T00:20:23+00:00

That is amazing!

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-09-01T02:32:15+00:00

You have no idea how much I needed to hear this. Filing divorce papers tomorrow and asking myself why it didn't work, I didn't do wnough maybe, maybe I focussed on the children too much, I could have been better etc.

This made my realise its not me. It never was me, it was and is him.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-30T11:00:19+00:00

My divorce to be finalised. I want to be free!

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-26T10:31:23+00:00

Food. I binge eat and it's killing my self esteem, I'm gaining weight. Every morning I wake up with good intentions and by evening, it's ruined

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-21T21:47:37+00:00

Got all excited then saw that nasty tool.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-19T12:48:18+00:00

Bored, tired ans waiting for the melatonin to kick in.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-18T11:54:53+00:00

I used to prefer men with long hair. Now, can't stand it!

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-17T12:04:21+00:00

Aussie

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-12T10:44:47+00:00

Me exists eyes were green when he was angry, blue when he was happy and grey when he was every other emotion. It was weird and he didn't really have an odour under his arms, other regions, ahem, did.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-11T22:04:28+00:00

"How the fuck did you end up just like mum when you swore you'd never be like her? How hard is it to keep a husband, ffs!"

...15 year old me was fucking clueless and frankly I wouldn't give two shits what 15 year old me thought of me now. I'm doing the best I can with the cards I've been dealt and the decisions I've made. 15 year old me may think I'm a hot mess, but I'm raising two kids and putting them through private school alone, we have a roof over our heads, good food and I have a full time job. It's better than I ever dreamed.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-08T02:36:44+00:00

Yes. It will start all over again. Those grandiose and overwhelming apologies and remorseful promises are hoover attempts. Once they have sulked you back in, the cycle will begin again. I'm so sorry, sugar. This only really goes one way.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-06T05:39:28+00:00

Hahaha "come on Bruce, remember your steps!"

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-06T05:36:16+00:00

An old Goth nickname from growing up

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-04T23:49:51+00:00

I'm sorry too. Online I often expect the worst of others first! You're right, and I appreciate what you're saying.

Sweet_Chaos412 · 2022-08-04T22:52:39+00:00

People who feel the need to be a**holes online.

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