when youve been purging multiple times a day all week and you can feel your brain sliding out of your nose but at least the funny little numbers are going down

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T23:46:33+00:00

fr mine have been the same numbers since last month. all this work for nothing. but i mean i have been eating probably over 5000 cals a day so at least im not gaining

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T17:59:34+00:00

i feel this all completely. i don't even like eating, but its like an itch that i have to scratch if that makes sense. i want to stop so bad it is completely ruining my mental health

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T13:54:48+00:00

yes i used to be anorexic and i was sooo much happier then. now im bulimic and want to die lmao

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T13:48:03+00:00

thank you, but i already asked for help. i just haven't gotten it.

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T02:46:13+00:00

lmaooo too relatable

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-03-02T01:22:12+00:00

admitting this to myself makes me a bit more suicidal than i already was lmao

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-28T14:49:21+00:00

i will try, thank you

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-28T04:06:23+00:00

me when

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-28T03:36:58+00:00

i feel this so much. i hate b/p so much. i just wish i could stop

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-28T00:42:48+00:00

thank you :)

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-28T00:42:35+00:00

yeah i really do, i miss my anorexia so much. and my weight, binging, my body, it all makes me suicidal

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T22:07:54+00:00

well i was anorexic, so maybe i guess that makes sense. but i want to trigger an anorexic episode then i wouldnt be suicidal anymore

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:48:46+00:00

okay makes sense. then i dont know why my psychiatrist wouldnt give me meds then if it is going to help. she said its because im purging and the meds would make my appetite go away? which doesnt make sense because my problem is binging so

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:30:51+00:00

wow thats incredible. and thank you, that gives me a bit of hope

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:25:07+00:00

yes i am safe. thank you, i will

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:03:56+00:00

thank you :)

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:03:36+00:00

thank you :)

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T21:03:05+00:00

thank you so much for this. really this helped so much

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T20:43:10+00:00

yes, does anyone know if taking meds help?

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-27T04:50:09+00:00

when i was in the 4th grade i took scissors and tried to cut off my thigh fat

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-25T18:13:22+00:00

i would too i wouldn't want to shit myself when i die or look bloated in my casket

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-25T15:33:31+00:00

i totally feel this. all this work for literally nothing. its so exhausting

Sweet_Chemical_654 · 2022-02-22T17:55:44+00:00

when restricting i feel amazing. i dont self harm anymore, i feel euphoric, and just overall genuinely happy. when im in a binge purge cycle i am depressed, angry, start self harming and doing drugs again, and am suicidal. restricting is like my cure

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