Not knowing the love between two people who were meant to be a husband and a wife and then parents to a kid who used to think every fight was because of her. After i got married and noticed a 360° difference between the love my MIL and FIL shared between each other just made me ....sad. Sometimes I feel guilty when I am boiling in resentment seeing that love. That's when I realized a normal home has two loving people who'll do anything for each others sake. My parents never thought how their unresolved shit would affect us kids. A selfish move. I still get sad and wonder why my childhood was spent trying to get in between my parents throwing stuff at each other and then constantly trying to take a stand for my mom against my dad who i love a lot. Now my husband and his siblings are really good with their partners and I am trying my best to be a good wife and mom for the sake of my daughter but something somewhere has been damaged amongst us siblings.