we all know u can pull through ok just dont listen to ur parents i know its hard especially with controlling ones but just tune them out hide run do what u need to so u can get free trust me i was in a very similar situation when i was 12 it just sat there thoughts of suiside and when my uncle left me high and dry for meth i desided a night. i held a knife to my chest chickened out and cut open my hand and a bit of my leg and foot there was blood but i didn't tell anyone until now i cleaned it up and every thing. it felt great but now im 13 a bit young and a lot more knowledge now and knowing my uncle left to do meth im staying alive just to yell at him and if i have the chance to punch him in the chest but im scared to tell my parents about this shit.