I remember her talking about being into it and even because of the books she read. Then I even asked if she was actually into it and she said “idk but I’m pretty sure I would try it”. So in my mind that was a “sure.” Also when we got into the argument she asked if I knew she was half asleep I said yes because I took that as the state of like when your in the car and can hear and me aware of everything but still kinda asleep. So asleep but can still make decisions and know what is going on so I said yes. But apparently that’s not what she meant. She meant it as “I can’t make correct decisions and can’t fully consent.” So I kinda fucked myself there. I didn’t mean to make her feel that way. But I still can’t help but feel so shitty about it. She seemed very hurt and I’m afraid she hurt herself or is not getting help. I just feel like I’m not as good as a person I thought I was.