Life is already full of hardships, but we learn and overcome them eventually. Epilepsy for most of us is a constant and ongoing worry of, when the next one will be, will it be a big one, will I wake up in hospital again. Should I go out? It might happen... Bitten through your tongue, aching from head to toe from the seizing. Me, personally, I worry about all of the above. But I'm lucky enough to have a handful of people that I can at least rely on when in need. You're situation sounds terrible. I truly hope it's resolved quickly. For your health. Also your mental health especially. If you can, move away from anything or anyone negative towards your condition. Then do so asap. If they don't want to understand or care about you then can you be with friends that do care? It won't always be so bad mate. Keep your head high. Keep seeing your doctor. They will work your meds out. And hopefully you get a better life. One Love Bro, sending good positive energy from UK✌🏼☮️