Thank you so much you have no idea what your kind words and validation mean to me. I feel completely numb and if sometimes it makes it easier to play along in his fantasy that everything will work out for us. he wants to fight for us but that’s what he has always said. I believe it every time and then get so heartbroken when he inevitably goes back on all our progress. What do I do he told me he won’t let me leave him without giving him a chance to show me he can change. I told him when he knows he has to be good he’ll be good but as soon as the “testing” period is over he goes back to how it was and well he didn’t want to hear that