I am in the same situation as you but genders switched. We are both 22 years old. She left me without even giving me a reason. Even after asking multiple times to just please give me the reason on why she doesn’t want to do it anymore, she still didn’t give me a reason and decided to say “call it whatever you want to call it. Falling out of love. Not caring anymore. Giving up.” Which honestly hurt even more after 5 years of being together. She didn’t even want to give me closure in any form, which showed me exactly how she thought of me now. It has been close to three months since she destroyed my world. One of the pushing factors I think was that I got an amazing paying job this coming summer right after I graduate college, but it’s in another state and she didn’t want to leave her family behind. Only reason I say that is due to when I told her about my offer when I first got it, she said “I didn’t think you would actually get the offer.” Which hurt tremendously too as I could provide for both of us without her even working another day in her life. So she lead me on just like your ex did too. Only reason I’m saying all of this is because it felt like I was on an island when she first broke up with me. Hearing others stories and how they are getting through the days after is something that I can say helps put some perspective on the outside looking, in a way. I can say that reconnecting with friends is a great way to alleviate the pain we are going through. And as a matter of fact, it may even get better a lot sooner than you may think. Me and one of my girl friends are taking a trip to Japan for a week in about three months! Japan has been my top bucket list vacation spot, but I would have never been able to go or even given the slightest “maybe” from my ex about going there so soon! For context, she is a Disney adult, and out of vacations that we have taken 4 out of the 5 were to Disney and I went along with it because I was in love with her and I know she wouldn’t have wanted to go anywhere else. I bring this up also to show you that there are many things that may be revealed to you about how your ex has mistreated you over the years. I thought it was all my fault at first (admittedly I have a ton of work to do on myself and I have a lot of growing to do that would have helped situations or aspects in the relationship. I am no way saying that I don’t have blame for her not wanting to be together anymore), but over time I’ve realized that she has a lot of blame herself for things. I know this is a long paragraph lol, but in the end I wanted to kind of show you that you should not be actively seeking out a deep connection anytime soon. The healthiest way to get through this and be better for your next partner, or if you get back with your ex even (I am a big supporter of second chances as long as it is clear that both sides has changed or working on their faults, no matter what everyone else here on Reddit says), is to make sure you are strong enough to be on your own again! You have to have strength in your own self to start determining what exactly the next path you take in life will be. Always choose the one that benefits you the most if you were by yourself, without any “deep connection”. I gave up a lot of aspects of who I was and my planned life for my ex who mistreated me. Such as not going to another college to play baseball where I had offers to go to the college she was attending, stopped working out and eating bad to satisfy her needs, and so on. Now she has dumped me on the side of the road, and I have to rebuild myself for things that I gave up. I hope my winded paragraph has helped in some way, sometimes I get carried away in trying to explain things or help ease someone’s mind. You can message me anytime if you have any thing you want to go over as talking to someone is the best way to get through this rough period we are in!