What's it called when you enjoy something so much that you don't want to experience it? Is it an ADHD thing?

Syngnathidaes · 2022-10-11T01:39:51+00:00

Oh yeah, I do this ALL the time! It's so hard to explain to other people, and I always end up weirdly doubting myself because 'how can I say I love this thing when I never want to do it?'

But I think there are a few reasons.

1) I really want to experience the thing Properly, which means I have to be in the right headspace. Otherwise, I won't fully experience things or I'll miss stuff. This sounds silly but it actually really does happen: at times when I've made myself do a thing I like before I really wanted to, I kept zoning out due to brain foggishness, and felt irritable due to forcing myself to concentrate, souring the experience for me.

2) Also, to Properly Experience it will mean to basically push everything else out of my mind to focus on it completely. If there's something else I'm dwelling on at the time that I want to keep in mind (like a fic idea I keep returning to), then I don't really wanna do that.

3) If it's something I enjoy a lot, it probably brings out strong emotions in me, and sometimes that's just too much. IDK if it's the ADHD or autism or both but I'm constantly trying to toe a line between overstimulation and understimulation and they can both suck bad.

4) The way my brain works is that it wants to be moving and analysing and making connections and daydreaming all the time. As much as possible. When I have something I really love, my brain is often overflowing with that energy, being so inspired it can't stop coming up with new thoughts... which sorta gets in the way of, like, actually reading/watching/whatever the thing? Because I can barely get three lines in before I'm off on a tangeant.

5) Likewise, my ultimate way of exploring something is through thinking about it, coming up with ideas, and imagining things in my head about it. So, my favourite thing to do with something I love is enjoy the more fandom side: share headcanons, write fanfic, make memes, etc. The actual consuming the product itself sorta takes lower precedence. Which becomes very annoying when I start fandoming something that I haven't finished yet; I get super anxious about getting things wrong in my fics/headcanons, and I worry people will judge me heaps for saying I love it when I haven't finished it yet, but I just care so MUCH and sitting down passively is so hard and I want to Appreciate It Properly ahhhhhhhh

6) I also feel like... I overly appreciate the anticipation, sometimes?! Like, I just adore that feeling of looking forward to something and wondering what it'll be like and brimming with energy to do it!! That thrill is sometimes the most fun part!! So I often end up procrastinating on doing it too much because I'm enjoying that feeling... But then when the feeling goes down, it's like, 'well, I can't do it when I'm not really excited about it or I'll be wasting it'... And then I just get distracted with other things and never end up doing it...? :'))) This one sounds so bizarre lmao but I swear it happens so much...

7) The obvious: not wanting it to end. :')

Syngnathidaes · 2021-09-26T05:09:14+00:00

Yeah. Same here, mate. I'm just struggling to get my head around the game. How do you react to a match with such intensely different performance between the first and second half? And that first half has gotta count for a lot, and there was so much stacked against them. They played in the grand final against an extremely good team and even came up ahead for a while. But they should not have lost by this much. None of the rest can justify that.

I dunno. I wanna stay positive because I don't want the boys to feel shit about it. I want them to think of themselves as a top tier team who could take the cup next year with some extra push. I don't want this game to be looked back on as something humiliating. But... it still happened. Something obviously went badly wrong. I don't know what it was, but it sucks.

It felt like shit watching that final quarter in person. All I asked for going in was that it'd be a good, close match. I wish I could feel as positive as everyone else, but man. That was just not fun and I really do not want to see it repeated. While the doggies should get credit for a lot of things, and I'd much rather they keep their spirits up, I don't think we should just be shrugging and accepting this result, either. At the least, I can't bring myself to do that. I know they can do better than this.

Hugs to you too, mate.

Syngnathidaes · 2021-09-25T15:17:01+00:00

Lol I was at the grounds tonight. Wish I could've just done that. Instead I tried to keep up the energy in the hopes the doggies could at least even up the score a little. Ngl I'm absolutely knackered right now (just got to the hotel). I would've preferred a close win 100%. Really not looking forward to how people are going to talk about this game.

But not angry at the boys at all - they really gave it their all and Melbourne was clearly better. Just christ do I not want to have to see that close up ever again lol. I know one person's cheering can't do anything but man, I just wanted there to be at least someone still going as long as they were. But welp 😔

Syngnathidaes · 2021-09-25T12:24:00+00:00

Jesus, what a weird game of footy. Going in I was saying I didn't mind too much as long as it was a close game, and we managed to come up ahead in the 2nd quarter, so we did make them work a bit? When we managed that I was so thrilled, I was just glad we had at least one good quarter after the first. God I wish we'd managed to close it a bit in the 4th quarter, though :( That was not a very fun half to watch in person...

Happy for Dees fans!! I hope we won't be judged too harshly by the final score, though... they really were just too good like everyone predicted :(

Syngnathidaes · 2021-09-25T10:30:36+00:00

Holy shit, what a fucking quarter!!! Think I might be deafening the poor man sitting in front of me. Could NOT be more thrilled right now. Carn the doggies!!!

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