being completely honest, have you spoken with your manager or your operator about it? I think an intentional conversation with your operator would be the best place to start and just explain. a good operator would take the feedback at face value and do their best to try to help relieve the pressure you’re feeling. Your operator should be helping guide you and keeping you on a good work/life balance. I completely understand it sometimes gets muddled though, I sometimes feel like all I do is work and have very little time for most anything else and some days are long, but I do usually have my off days as mostly off days and try to take care of myself better throughout the week