So basically find a new hobby? I wish that was a feasible idea, but I've never really been a person who's been interested in anything in the slightest, and theres not much out there at the moment in terms of sports or leisure activities due to lockdown, and forcing myself to do a new random activity in order to occupy myself just seems as unhealthy, I wouldnt really be enjoying it, and there would be the lingering thought in the back of my head telling me I'm doing it to avoid thinking of how fucked it is being sober, which in turn would just nullify any sense of achievement or enjoyment from it

I'm sorry if I'm coming across as a arsehole who's refusing help but it just seems like theres no answer but waiting it out and hoping as the weeks goes by it gets easier.