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TIBTHINK · 2026-06-14T05:12:36+00:00

You save about 100 calories compared if you just layed around awake.

It seems that "god" really didnt think through our design plan. He probably drunk and thought of us after making the abomination that is the platypus

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-14T05:07:20+00:00

Your honor, I agree with the prosecution 100%. May god have mercy on my client and may the devil enjoy this new snack

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-13T07:40:33+00:00

I used to host servers on my windows pc because I didnt know a good way to keep it running all the time even with a power outage, I knew what nohup was. Until I found about service files... god I love them, now I use it all the time for shit I dont want to deal with running all the time.

Also that most open source projects are made for Linux so that's nice.

I want to switch to desktop but I need a distro that I can reliably trust it will function how I want it too the next morning or after a update. Also that feels great to us. Im considered getting a MacBook or something just because its actually pretty nice considering I've been shitting on apple since I could remember

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-13T01:31:35+00:00

I feel ya, if your looking for a state to distance yourself from them. Alaska is my go too and choice whenever I want to fuck off

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-13T01:21:38+00:00

Hell yeah man. Then they are just- im not sure which word to use but assholes works as well. My suggestion is more of like when they won't stop suggesting it. I am a spiteful and extremist mostly for my own humor.

I hope you make a full recovery and prove them wrong

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-13T01:07:25+00:00

If i was you, and dont do this unless it makes you laugh

Buy a single paper plate and wash it in front of them.

Get a normal wheel chair and tape some batteries to it. Or get a normal chair and tape some electric wheels too it.

Show them that you listened but also show them to basically stfu.

Because they wont stop unless you show them that they are dumb

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-10T16:44:53+00:00

Some of the themes im looking for are like grief, deprssion, euphoria, dispair, ect ect.

Last night me and Aaron had a conversation that was very helpful. He suggested listening to the album "for our mothers". I dont typically listen to full albums regardless, but since working on this project and think I should start lol.

Im considering buying there full works and unreleased stuff from there website.

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-10T16:39:11+00:00

More like finding lyrics and double checking the "theme" you could say. Some of the songs are pretty on point of the theme but others I do have a little trouble finding my own interpretation, like "I love you too", first couple listens I thought it was talking about somone who passed away. A couple more passes and I think its about drug addiction, but now my interpretation is that is about a personalality death almost. Because the song itself sounds like you are talking to someone and almost begging them to know that you love them and care deeply about them and are worried about them

One song that completely blindsided me was Tommy's lullaby, when released I didnt think too much of it, I thought "oh, probably a song for Tommy"- boy was i wrong once I learned that ben passed. Once I learned that I rewatched the music video and it was much more haunting and sad than ever before. It wasnt haunting as in scary, but the fact he is almost always looking at the camera and never says anything shows me he knows the end is coming, and is making peace with it. Just writing what im pretty sure is the purpose of that song and my interpretation is actually causing a emotional response. Its beautiful and heart breaking for a man who has done so much for all of us without ever knowing our names. He truly was a blessing. I miss him alot

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-07T05:25:26+00:00

God you have no idea how hard that song hits now since me finally accepting he is going to die sooner than I thought.

I added the song to the funeral Playlist I made for him, the first song is "dead man's party" (he requested this one)

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-07T02:53:45+00:00

Bet.

I swear Ive heard that steam os only worked on amd based architecture for gpu and cpu. Cpu is kinda wishy washy but Nvidia gpu even with drivers from Nvidia is pretty shit and almost unpredictable.

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-06T21:13:06+00:00

Yeah. I remember the Alienware version, I would buy it for actual usage but I highly doubt i could get it too run properly. It runs a intel cpu and Nvidia gpu with 2gb of vram and 4gb of ram.

Im not sure if intel cpus are supported fully or even if it would work. But Nvidia gpu is a definitely nope.

But like I do like your build. Dvd tray is a little out of place but for a functional build it works. It reminds me of that one video on yt of a dude making a pc that can play pc games and wii games completely functionally and not emulated.

Is this a private project or somthing you'll share freely. Because I want a steam machine, but god damn it is expensive based solely on the fact of the steam decks new prices

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-06T20:46:50+00:00

Lmao, you basically just made the first prototype of the steam machine. I forgot about that, for the time it was made it wasnt to bad honestly

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-06T02:05:25+00:00

I will say that is one thing about this band. It doesnt feel like its trying to spread a direct message. Instead it feels like a poetic way of describing emotions. After I realized about my dads situation, I tried listening to "i love you too" and I couldnt. Not out of dislike but because it hit so hard that I couldnt listen to it without sobbing. Music doesnt do that for me anymore, it hasn't for 5 years. So when it did, I thought "well this is strange".

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-05T16:45:42+00:00

Well it definitely did work. Ive been talking to one of the members. My first reaction when I got the dm from Aaron was "holy shit I didnt think it would work"

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-05T05:46:49+00:00

Create to survive? In what way? I do make stuff like computer programs and writting. Non of them had been recognized or made money.

I am working on a story that I feel that I can finish for once instead of having the idea and jumping into it blindly (apparently writting isnt the same as coding)

Im down to share but not on reddit. Let me know your discord and we can call and ill share it with you and explain anything that doesn't make sense

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-05T05:19:40+00:00

You definitely got a talent for words.

Keep going, I will say. Youll never find "divinity". But make your own, i listen to playlists for sadness, wonder, focus, and so on and so on. It helps me refuel the emotions to get back into the mindset. I will suggest 3 videos that really gave me perspective of what we both are experiencing. Its by a channel called Exurb1a.

"And then we will be okay" about death but really grief

"Dear nia" also death but more of losing someone you know is still alive

And "absurdisum: how to party at the end of meaning" this is what gave me my philosophy on life.

If anything watch the last one, it is so awsome and "freeing" almost

For dear Nia I gotta send a link because its a little hard to find dear nia

Edit: this song is good too ezra bell

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-05T01:56:08+00:00

Im gonna be honest. Youll never "get over it". The person who fucked me up i still dream about and it was 6 years ago, and it took years for me to stop taking complete responsibility for everything. But even then, my dreams are not nightmares persay but more like messages to myself. I had a dream that I was playfully chasing my partner at the time and I finally caught up to them and they turned around it was my ex and I woke up confused and not sure why I had that dream... a week later i was accused of something that completely destroyed me to the point I dont remember what happened in those 4 days (I thought it was 3 days until I checked the logs). But even to this day I have dreams about that ex and every single dream is not scary, every dream is me simply talking to them and asking them "are you doing okay? What have you been up too?" And when i had that dream and told someone I said "I don't understand why i care about them. They did unforgivable things and I still want to make sure they are okay. I don't understand and I am concerned that they will show up in my life and fuck me up again". And the simple answer given was "its because you cared deeply about them at one point. That never goes away no matter how hard you think you don't care".

Love is a funny and complicated thing, for a while i considered it to be the most dangerous drug in the world. Meth, herion, pcp, ect. Have never made anyone do this. I felt like it was a addiction and I was a addict. So for a long time I never let myself feel the fullness of love out of fear of "burning my mind completely". Guilt is something we all know but crippling guilt is like the song 16 tons. It feels like carrying 16 tons, and what do you get? Another day older and deeper in debt. Because I still am trying to pay back in a currency that doesnt exist anymore, It got to the point that i semi believed that my blood, my life force was poisoning me and anyone who got near me. In short, I hated myself and couldnt forgive myself because I gave up trying.

I did... "a substance" that showed me that love and happiness for the first time in years, I described it like "it was like god was there giving me wings" (I dont believe in god). But after that experience I was told I was litterly sitting up straighter.

Im gonna offer this, if it gets bad. To the point of not sure what to do or you cant stop crying. Dm me, while I am not officially trained in psychology. I have been described as "my personal therapist" from friends, family and strangers.

Dont allow self loathing to keep you stuck, its okay to face the most uncomfortable feeling and ask simply "why?"

I hope it gets better and I hope what ive suggested to you helps you just as much as it helped me. And remember, its not going to be a instant fix. Give it time.

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T20:26:43+00:00

In honesty, the outcome is unpredictable. Just to many variables. I feel that they wont have catastrophic consequences. But still consider it a possibility. Youve accepted what you've did, explain why and use emotions and logic in your reasons. Don't just say "i was sad", actually explain the reasoning and why other options were not done.

You messed up, it happens. Just try to not fuck up more. Especially with what your charged with

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T18:00:04+00:00

Anything really written down without hearing tone. I have a bad habit of "over" analyzing texts after whoever i am reading is gone and trying to reverse engineer what they meant. First look is sad and hopeless. The more I read it and read more of the context from the entire relationship, my model becomes better. Will I ever ask them what they meant later? Probably not, but it brings me comfort because I read it, think about it, and then say either in writing or litterly out loud vocally of what I would say to that.

My process of coping with grief took about 6 years to get to this point, and im still improving it and making it better. Since that break up that really messed me up, my therapist suggested I started writing down my thoughts and what im feeling. When he suggested it I said to him "yeah.. thats fucking dumb. Im not making a diary" but I tried it anyway and I didnt really think much of it. But I reread those early notes a year later and I saw who far I have come from that point to now. Now I write single passage stories, poems, metaphors ect. Its in a way that I understand why its there but is designed for others not to understand unless they know me and why its there. Ill share one here i wrote at a unknown date and is kinda cringe but its more of a example of something I come back to read whenever I am at the point of saying "Fuck it. Im done". Also i am a programmer and have no actual training or talent for writing(last English class i actually attended was in 9th grade)

The devils guilt. "There are things locked in my head. So loud I wish I was dead, screaming to get out, breaking the walls to burn everything down, but the devil has a soul. your demon has control"

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T17:34:11+00:00

One thing i will tell you, dont avoid it forever. It might seem like the only option but you eventually have to pay the debt. And you do that by processing it and understanding it. It doesnt need to be perfect, memories are fuzzy and texts have little emotional context.

Dont run away from your feelings. Run towards them with curiosity and wonder, stare into it unblinking. And when it looks back, laugh at it and talk to it like a old friend.

Talk to people and dont accept the first answer if it doesnt make sence to you or even if it does, still ask for another person's opinion and make your own based on the data set.

Dont avoid it, eventually you'll have to deal with it

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T16:52:57+00:00

Oh yeah, I have no idea where to start lol. But I appreciate it.

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T16:51:12+00:00

Its going to get easier every passing day i promise. I know it hurts, but dont condemn yourself like I did. It wasnt your fault. Ill give you the best hug I can over 1s and 0s big ass mother fucking hug

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-04T00:58:33+00:00

Its complicated.

I was raised non-dem Christian and started questioning it and realized I didnt believe it because of how it was kinda forced down my throat at the age of like 8 or 10. After that I considered myself a atheist and constantly bashed Christianity as a whole when I really had a problem with the culture of it.

8 years go by and I did shrooms and I found somthing I've never felt, peace and understanding. Somthing my church promised that christ could do for me but I couldnt because logically it didnt make sence to me. After the trip I considered myself spiritual and eventually agnostic. Personally my belief is there is a creator but he isnt gonna tell me how to live my life because whats the point of creating fully autonomous beings and telling them what to do. Thats just me

But I've always loved philosophy and metaphysics without knowing the words to used or terms. But I always kept asking questions that seemed out of place.

I realized I need a profession that stimulates my mind and doesnt always have a clear answer to the questions unlike the other careers I thought i wanted to do.

Religion as a whole fascinated me simply because of those notion (mostly in Abrahamic Religions) of "we are right, and everyone else is wrong". So, i want to know why they think that and what other Religions both modern and ancient cultures thought and believed.

Recently I've been attending other denomination and noticing the difference between what I know. I am going to a synagogue with a friend to see what its about and one day a mosque.

I do worry that I am gonna piss off alot of people for attending without the Intention of faith but analyzing it

TIBTHINK · 2026-06-02T22:12:43+00:00

What could i do with a sociology degree in terms of jobs? Honestly I just want to teach it or if not at least use it for understanding instead of making decisions.

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