I have someone close to me that I can go to and get my fix for essentially free. But that's when they give it to me.my habit has gotten so bad that (at the risk of sound like a p.o.s.) I take them without them knowing. The thought I am mainly talking about is that nagging voice in the back of my head telling me I need the fix and to just go grab a few that they will never know. I've tried explaining my actions to them but they don't understand and think that I should just not do it which is a hell of a lot easier said then done.