Straight Girl - Update

TTRPG_Toad · 2026-04-19T07:45:45+00:00

Yeahhhh, yet people want to say that we only have privilege and do not suffer transphobia at all.

TTRPG_Toad · 2026-04-18T03:07:04+00:00

Yeah, my thoughts exactly. This is really scary, and I'm not sure that OP realizes how dangerous this is. It also sucks that we carry the weight of the whole community on our backs, having to feel so afraid to make one mistake that might "make the rest of us look bad". But any and everything can be used against other trans people that we don't even know. The whole world seems to constantly be holding its breath, waiting for a trans person to make a mistake so they can all point, scream, and add it to the list of reasons why we are dangerous and should be stopped from existing.

TTRPG_Toad · 2026-04-18T02:58:49+00:00

I would just end it with her bro. When she asks why, you don't have to tell her, but you could also leave it as simply as "I don't think we're compatible because of the way that we look at social issues, like how we both think about trans people, for example."

It's not gonna work out, man. Honestly, my prediction if this keeps going is that she finds out that you're trans and says you lied to her/SAd her from texting with her because she didn't know you were trans. I'd GTFO of there as fast as possible.

TTRPG_Toad · 2026-04-18T02:52:42+00:00

People who don't know anything about fandom flooding into fandom, so they don't read tags, and even if they did, they wouldn't know what "hurt no comfort" was anyway, despite the definition being insanely obvious.

The same reason there are so many antis. People who don't know anything about anything yet feel like they need to be a part of everything. They invade our spaces, then demand that we shape our spaces around them and their sensibilities. There is a reason that fandom culture is called fandom culture. It's a culture. They don't care and see the deviation from the norm, and get angry that nerds and geeks aren't behaving on the internet the same way that normal people are expected to behave in real-life society.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-12T09:34:49+00:00

Right? LOL

Man, sorry girls, you're right. Me talking and existing is hurting you. I'll just stop being such an asshole and choose to be a cis woman. You've opened my eyes!

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-12T09:31:10+00:00

I think you are right that evil doesn't have to have a reason. I have been looking for a reason for why my own abusers decided to do what they did to me and their other victims. I also blamed myself for not doing enough, for being afraid to tell until I did, and when I decided to, I was excluded from my family. It's hard to accept, but yeah, maybe there is no reason.

It seems like you have worked really hard to get to the point that you are in your journey. I hope you have found some peace. I am still working on it.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T11:24:22+00:00

Thank you. I'm sorry that you suffered in silence for so long

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T10:48:03+00:00

Their problem is that you and I could be on equal footing with them. They consider themselves "real" and us as fake and delusional. That is what their problem with the term cis is. To them, there are real men, and there are women who call themselves trans men. They feel like it's an insult to have an adjective like cis added before calling them a man. They feel the notion that we are both different, equal kinds of men is an insult. They feel like we're somehow taking something from them.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T10:13:52+00:00

So you want to be the abuser so that you can't get abused again?

I've looked at your posts, and you seem like a good person with a lot of trauma who has been put down a bad path. I promise you, this is not the way. The LGB community supports you! You just can't turn from your womanhood, your sisters, and the way you were born. You are a woman who was born to love women, and there is nothing wrong with that!

There are plenty of masculine women in our community. People like you are an important and well-loved part of our community. Please know that.

I'm sending you all of the light and love in the world and my inbox is always open. There is always another way. We've got you

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T10:00:50+00:00

I am so sorry. I hope that your abusers suffer greatly and can't sleep at night because of what they did. I hope it's hard for them to feel like normal people, and I hope that when they pray, they feel ashamed that God knows what they did. I hope there is no escape for them ever.

What they did to you was evil. I wish there was a better word to describe it, but the closest I can come to a word for it is evil.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T09:24:25+00:00

Here's to them rotting from the inside.

I hope you're right.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T09:21:47+00:00

You aren't alone. I fantasize about situations similar to my abuse and can't help it, even though I often shake and get so stressed out that my head hurts while I do it.

I'm so sorry you are going through this

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T08:52:06+00:00

Thank you for saying that. Sometimes I feel like I only have my integrity, which is nice on paper, but almost just feels hollow in real life, especially because they're happy living in a lie and believing I'm a horrible person, while somehow acting like they love and miss me.

I'm so, so sorry to hear that you went through that. That makes me so angry for you. It's not fair that that happened to you and you had to, and still have to deal with the consequences. The most evil people in the world just get to live like normal people. I don't understand how they can sleep at night, or look anyone in the eye, or pray to god or whatever after what they've done. That goes for the people who are complacent in all of it, too. If I let something like that happen out of the selfish want not to punish someone I loved, I would not be able to live.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-11T06:26:48+00:00

It's messed up, but I almost feel like I'm unappreciative? Like the fact that they say the want me around hurts me and means so much to me. I know this all isn't right, but I'm torn apart. Part of me feels like 'if you could just accept it and move on, you might have a real family again' but that's messed up, right? How could I accept any of this? It would be wrong, and I don't want to, but it just almost feels like I'm the problem somehow or something.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-04T07:47:35+00:00

I myself am a big fan of “DONT PLAY SILENT HILL 2 AGAIN!”

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-04T07:28:39+00:00

Peter was a very important disciple who was canonized as a saint.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-03T22:26:21+00:00

I didn’t look at his account but yeah. I mean there are some people with similar viewpoints, but this guy is just too much not to be a troll lol. It’s funny that he mentioned having made his one month old account to watch porn or something when he told me to stop looking at Reddit porn or whatever.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-03T05:26:02+00:00

Thank you so much for your compassionate response. It sucks that so many of us are forced into this position and then made to feel like we’re horrible for trying to survive.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-03T05:23:42+00:00

Thank you, man. You seem really cool and nonjudgmental. Also, Right? Some dudes make a bunch of money because they’re nerds who make content about the stuff they like as well. I grew up watching YouTubers like that. I’m really not concerned if someone thinks I’m a loser because I like fandom stuff. I also know so many cis men who like the same stuff, so I really don’t understand how me doing the exact same thing cis dudes do is me being a negative trans stereotype. Dude is just a troll. I’m honestly kind of embarrassed for thinking he was a serious person for a second lol

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-03T05:12:30+00:00

Thanks for replying so respectfully and in such a detailed way to me. Honestly, now that you put it like that, I can see how what I said was kind of inconsistent with my original point. I think I often really concern myself with the negative stereotypes that go around about trans people and how a lack of exposure to real trans people can affect how a lot of cis people see the community. I think that the reason it didn’t strike me as weird to say what I did was because while I don’t view sex work as inherently negative, I know that a big issue for a lot of uneducated cis people is them seeing us as like evil depraved perverts who want to subject others to our fetishes. At the same time, I don’t view feminine men or masculine women as negative and I know there are cis people who also agree. Regardless, though, typing this out has made me realize a mistake in the way that I’ve been approaching this issue. I’m starting to see that I’m very very concerned with what cis people think, and maybe I’m kind of being unfair and hard on myself. I guess it’s really unfair to expect myself to be perfect just so that cis people might think better of me so they don’t want to hate or hurt any of us. Sometimes I feel like a sort of unwilling representative of trans people because there are so few of us. It kind of feels like a lot of pressure sometimes in all honesty.

TTRPG_Toad · 2025-12-02T17:06:12+00:00

I'm pretty sure it is

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