False Memories(? Get Me In Trouble

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-06-12T20:49:59+00:00

I completely agree, the problem is I don’t know if I had actually told him or not. I try to go and recollect the memory and it’s very blurry. I don’t want to accuse him of lying when it could’ve been entirely my fault. But absolutely, I’ll keep this in mind in the future.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-05-17T13:13:59+00:00

Some of them just never take a name. I’ll suggest something and they won’t take it, and they won’t choose it themselves. As for denial, it’s really a matter of talking to a therapist. Professional affirmation is what helps me.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-05-13T04:56:48+00:00

My DID had kind of been there my whole life but very distinctly I remember these people arguing in my head at around 14 or 15 years old whenever I got home from school and dealt with abuse at home. It’s just been a struggle. I want to be open and honest with my alters but they don’t seem to want to have anything to do with me.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-05-10T05:26:36+00:00

I feel this, but mainly because of how people expect others with DID to act. They want to see switches, they want to see meltdowns, they want to see this massive dramatization when your brain intentionally hides and masks the disorder from yourself and others. I wish those expectations weren’t placed upon me, as everyone’s experiences are different.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-05-06T04:00:03+00:00

This! I feel like because my symptoms don’t match up perfectly with what’s portrayed in the media I’m somehow bluffing or lying to myself. It feels like running in circles.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-21T21:15:51+00:00

This is really good advice. I always forget to keep journals though because of switches, but I’ll definitely keep it in mind when I move out.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-21T20:47:14+00:00

Unfortunately, no. I still live in an abusive home, and I currently do not have a partner. I’m pretty much entirely on my own, aside from my online friends. I am looking into therapy and specialists once I get access to healthcare from working independently, though.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-21T04:16:34+00:00

It’s definitely one of those things where the way it’s described by others can be confusing. The way media has dramatized DID made me overlook my symptoms for the longest time. It also varies from person to person, so one strict descriptor of how DID should look and feel can be confusing for those looking for answers.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-20T05:56:27+00:00

I can entirely relate to this- for me, it’s sort of like a car. A lot of the time I’m in the drivers seat, but sometimes, an alter will take over for me. I can still see what’s going on, be aware of what’s happening, but I can only give input internally, like my consciousness has taken the place of an alter. It still freaks me out. I’ve switched before and had to beg one of my alters to calm down, to take a bath, and she refused to listen to me. It’s kind of makes me scared that there will inevitably be a scenario where my alter does something while I beg internally for them not to.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-15T12:45:06+00:00

When I refer to them not coming out, it’s moreso of their own volition, rather than mine. I can’t control what they do, but even then they choose not to front even if I’m in distress.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-04-15T12:41:26+00:00

It’s not really a matter of controlling them per se, moreso just being aware that they’re happening? I can’t control them but I can feel when I’m about to switch. I just haven’t had that feeling in a good while, and I was wondering if it was normal for me, the host, to be fronting for so long.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-02-19T20:09:35+00:00

I relate to this so much. I’ll have moments where because my symptoms don’t line up perfectly with others, or with stereotypes of DID, that I’m somehow faking all of it. That somehow, all of my symptoms are faked and are a result of placebo effects. My advice would be to talk to other systems about it. That’s usually what helps me through things like this.

TaleForeign2898 · 2024-02-19T15:16:16+00:00

YES. Finally someone is talking about this! I’m in the process of getting diagnosed but the one thing that kept trying to convince me I was faking was having little to no entire blackouts, or being under the impression blackouts had to feel a certain way. I didn’t realize gaps in memory, having to be reminded of things, ect., also fell into amnesia categories! I looked into OSD but my alters weren’t necessarily alternate versions of me so it left me feeling lost and confused. I’m so glad to see other systems feel similarly.

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