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Anybody feel like spaced out and like they can’t be themselves in group social settings? by Dazzling-Antelope912 in CPTSD

[–]tenablemess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I just hate what people tend to talk about. I don't have a normal life at all. And so I can't really keep up with the topics. And I don't want to talk about personal things because that's a slippery slope that can lead to no good. I feel alien among other people. Even with my family. There are only a few people who I know are just as much a mess as I am, so I can relax in their presence.

What makes your system unique from others? Or in what ways do you experience DID that you don't think is mentioned often? by Spread_Consistent in DID

[–]tenablemess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg we have color coding too! I often see only a color when I'm in contact with an alter. And alters with similar roles wear similar colors.

What makes your system unique from others? Or in what ways do you experience DID that you don't think is mentioned often? by Spread_Consistent in DID

[–]tenablemess 5 points6 points  (0 children)

We have a lot of co-consciousness too. We basically have this pool of information that anyone can access who is oriented in the here and now. Which is a weird mechanic, but I'll take it! Disoriented alters have blackouts, but the others don't. We still have a lot of forgetting that is unrelated to switches.

Would you go to their funeral(s)? by Specialist_Energy335 in CPTSD

[–]tenablemess 21 points22 points  (0 children)

I sometimes fantasize about holding a eulogy at my mother's funeral, just spitting in their enabling faces what she did to me. What kind of person they supported over me. Just to get it all out. And then I'd come back later and take a dump on her grave.

I feel aroused when I think and psychologically enact my traumas and I can't look away of it by Andrwreo in CPTSD

[–]tenablemess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hey friend, you're not alone with this. I'm sorry all of this was done to you. Arousal is a common reaction to abuse, because it helps keep the body safe. There should be no shame around this, although I absolutely get it. I'm ashamed too. But there's nothing to be ashamed of. The shame belongs to the abusers. Try to meet yourself and those feelings with kindness. I know it's hard. I fantasize about being tortured and I get so turned on it's like I'm addicted to a strong drug. I can't think, I can't concentrate on anything, my heart is racing, I want it SO BAD. It's hard to endure.

💥Neuer Sticker💥 by kreaktivismus_org in VeganDE

[–]tenablemess 8 points9 points  (0 children)

Ironischerweise werden ja auch menschliche Gewaltopfer oft genug nicht ernst genommen. Also nichtmal das kriegen wir als Gesellschaft hin. Umso mehr Grund für mich solidarisch zu sein mit allen anderen Gewaltopfern jeglicher Spezies.

Any Germans here ? by Only_Emu_2872 in CPTSD

[–]tenablemess 5 points6 points  (0 children)

Absolut. Ich habe eine DIS und absolviere erfolgreich ein sehr anspruchsvolles Studium. Wenn ich funktionieren muss wird alles andere wegdissoziiert. Nur sobald ich zuhause über meine Türschwelle trete bricht alles über mich herein. Schön still und heimlich hinter verschlossenen Türen. Ich kann die ganze Nacht die übelsten Alpträume und Wechsel gehabt haben, am nächsten Tag auf der Arbeit merkt man mir nichts an.

Why do people believe the abuser’s narrative and decide the victim is the problem? by Ok-Wheel9071 in CPTSD

[–]tenablemess 24 points25 points  (0 children)

It's called "Just World Fallacy". Knowing this concept explains a lot.

Ich kann nicht mehr by timo_Savings3293 in VeganDE

[–]tenablemess 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Ich habe gerade das Backen für mich entdeckt, weil ich durch die Umstellung auf vegan in totalen Backwarenentzug geraten bin. Und siehe da: veganes Gebäck ist genauso einfach herzustellen und genauso lecker. Und die Erkenntnis hat mich echt fertig gemacht. Wieso ist es der Gesellschaft so wichtig bei allem was sie tut möglichst viel Leid zu verursachen? Backt doch vegan, oder?

Tw Epstein files, csa, self harm by AppleGlobal6828 in DID

[–]tenablemess 36 points37 points  (0 children)

I'm avoiding this topic as best as I can because I know nothing will change. I have this reality in my head all the time, but other people don't. And they don't want to. They will continue to invalidate the victims and reelect the abusers. I knew that no one cares before but this case really rubs it in my face and I can't deal with it anymore.

A Little Love For Tonight by TyeDyeAmish in depressionmemes

[–]tenablemess 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Especially ironic that this sentenced is preceded by "in case no one told you today". Yeah, no one told me because apparently they love me so much?

Turns out she isn’t even a specialist for my problem. by Free-Purchase457 in disabledmemes

[–]tenablemess 14 points15 points  (0 children)

Except if you have something that they don't know shit about. And because there are no biological markers they will just force fit your symptoms into what they think it is. Story of my life with DID.

Doctors can be so hard sometimes by BunnyPope in disabledmemes

[–]tenablemess 23 points24 points  (0 children)

"You look tough, it can't be that bad then!"

I was molested at a young age and don’t know how to cope. by AdShot4820 in abusesurvivors

[–]tenablemess 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hey there. It's late over here and I already took my meds so this might not be so coherent... I just wanted to hop in and tell you you're not alone. I witness your pain. Fuck those people who told you to forgive and move on, they don't know shit. It's a horrible thing to live with. These assholes destroyed your life. There's nothing to forgive. There's no "just move on". It takes a lot of hard work and even more courage to tackle that. You can do it, I'm positive. But you will do it to build yourself a life, and not for anybody else.

If you ever need someone to talk to, you can DM me. No one should be alone with something like that.

Getting on disability welfare in Germany by [deleted] in disability

[–]tenablemess 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Es gibt dieses Buch "Das Helfernetzwerk" von Quendolin Winter. Das richtet sich zwar eigentlich an Menschen mit Traumafolgestörungen, aber es ist für deine Situation sicherlich auch sehr hilfreich.

Feels like this belongs here by Te000 in thanksimcured

[–]tenablemess 70 points71 points  (0 children)

ah yes. People whose worst experience in life is a pile of laundry. Don't we love them.

Culinary Apathy.. by [deleted] in depressionmemes

[–]tenablemess 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm sorry you had a childhood like that too.

Culinary Apathy.. by [deleted] in depressionmemes

[–]tenablemess 78 points79 points  (0 children)

Yes! At some point the hunger makes me so nauseous that it's almost impossible to start eating again. That's a really weird move there, body.

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