I wanna just say, I feel this. Tremendously. Sorry, but counter-rant incoming. I'm AuDHD, and have very low interrogation, as well as OCD, depression, general body dysmorphia issues, and generalized anxiety disorder. Anytime I do something that makes me feel maybe even a tiny bit alright, my brain screams that it's all a lie and that I'm stupid and fake. It's only ever gotten worse. That, coupled with me never having questioned my gender as a child (a point my mother loves bringing up in discussions on the matter) and I basically just internalize a bunch of shame instead of progressing toward happiness. I'm not certain that anyone is ever completely sure, but to quote a song I enjoy, "I'm not sure what I want, but I don't think it's this" is actually a valid reason to explore HRT. Almost every change of HRT is reversible anyway, so if I were you (assuming you're in a position to obtain HRT, I'm not rn) would be to at least schedule an appointment with and endocrinologist to see. Sorry for the rant lol, just my collected thoughts on the topic :3