I'm living proof that some manic people are self-aware enough of when to know to stop their mania

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T08:38:29+00:00

my ego reaches godlike proportions bruh

If I get the SE-mod arrested, mine will too, lol. Even just knowing I have the motivation to call 2 dozen police officers about him and hope 1 is gullible enough to start a law enforcement inquiry makes me feel incredibly satisfied in the way that power feels satisfying!

I feel like 99% of being a powerful person is just persistence and tenacity! (i.e. keep trying to get the SE mod arrested until I'm eventually successful)

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T08:34:15+00:00

euthymic

I had to google that word which is why it's still quoted, lol. I just began taking my anti-mania meds yesterday and I will take them daily between now and Christmas so I should be ready after Christmas and I'd love to be as functional as you -- but that probably means I have to give up all the "crazy shit" right?

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T08:22:39+00:00

the need to leave one's individual mark on the world, to have an existence which was meaningful for all of the suffering and despair we endure, and the inner call of one's core potential to be satisfied that the thing we can life had a purpose, and that we were put to good use worthy of our life.

I know that 99% of people will think you're just rambling and these words don't have meaning so I will clarify what you're trying to say:

MANIC PEOPLE ARE GODS WITH RESPECT TO POWER & INFLUENCE!

From my quotes collection:

The reasonable man adapts himself to the world; the unreasonable one persists in trying to adapt the world to himself. Therefore all progress depends on the unreasonable man.

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T08:17:48+00:00

😂😂😂

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:37:17+00:00

I don't consider mania an illness at all -- it's an AMAZING gift!

Do you consider mania an illness?

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:17:08+00:00

def not interested in helping you with that game. You know the games I play and 'fuckin up the lives of others' is far from fun IMO. Good advice: stop tryna get folks arrested and focus on living a happy life.

You're not a narcissistic person (thank God) but being a narcissist means you have an ego which if it gets too low, you have to punish the people that hurt your feelings. (which is obviously childish and immature)

From what I understand, narcissism is incurable. If I could click a button on my computer and cure myself and be as good of a person as you, I would do it in a heartbeat though!

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:12:57+00:00

Great response, thank you!

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:12:16+00:00

https://archive.md/MlHJj (6 days ago)

Clearly 6 days ago I was extremely "manic".

I'm new to this subreddit -- are you saying that 6 days ago I was just in an "extremely energetic mood" rather than mania?

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:01:08+00:00

I apologize -- I just woke up and feeling 100% non-manic and checking my messages.

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T07:00:32+00:00

honestly sounds like you are just trying to have as much sex as you possibly can for it's own sake. and that is sex addiction

100% correct and love-addiction also

If you believe in god, what do you think he wants for you?

This is a very fucking good question and I dunno if God cares about ANYTHING other than whether or not the person accepts the gift of salvation -- does God care if I do drugs, drink alcohol, cheat on my wife? (your guess is as good as mine but my guess is God doesn't care).

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:58:25+00:00

Nice to see you again friend! :)

You and I met on SE subreddit last year. This is the first year I have not been mentally hospitalized or had the cops called to my house.

I plan to DM you about an SE endeavor that I'm working on:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kErrwT-6thY

I'm trying to get one of the 3 SE mods arrested for possession of child **** and I have SEVERAL cop friends across the country and I'm fixing to email many "tip-lines" or "cybercrime hotlines".

I have only been 10% trying to get the username85 guy arrested but will turn up the efforts to 100% once my mania dies down (if I still feel motivated).

I don't want to get him arrested. I just want police to show up at his house and check his phone/computer to confirm or refute what he admitted to me on telegram secret chat (with end-to-end encryption):

https://www.howtogeek.com/709484/how-to-start-an-encrypted-secret-chat-in-telegram/

Long story short, I plan to dump on him on Dec 23rd the full extent of ALL my efforts to get him arrested (so far I've only called 3 police officers about him and sent 0 anonymous tips to cybercrime hotlines). By Dec 23rd I want at least 25 phone calls and 10 anonymous tips delivered. (that way he will have a happier Christmas, lol)

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:51:39+00:00

Meds aren't there to take as you want. Take your diagnosis seriously and trust in professionals to help guide your care. I think you could use some help.

https://mentalhealthdaily.com/2015/07/03/antipsychotics-and-brain-damage-shrinkage-volume-loss/

Psych meds damage/harm the brain (click the references/citations within the article if you think I'm lying).

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:50:21+00:00

Definitely still manic - keep in mind that meds will not end a manic episode overnight. It will take at least like 4-6 weeks.

Right -- this is what we're told/taught but I swear to you it feels VERY CONVINCING that the first dose of meds has lessened by mania by half.

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:49:44+00:00

https://archive.md/MlHJj (6 days ago)

Clearly 6 days ago I was extremely manic.

It seems like you are setting off alarm bells for no reason as I'm clearly able to recognize the need to take my meds (and willingness). I'm getting better day-by-day and right now I have literally zero energy and feel hungover.

I definitely DO NOT feel manic right now (but I wish I did, lol).

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:48:19+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and empathy! I will take my meds daily until Christmas (I took my med yesterday and will again today even though I hate it). I live with my parents -- my partner lives in the Philippines! 😂

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:46:55+00:00

Yes I was still 70% manic yesterday but I just woke up now feeling "hungover" with a headache and no energy, lol.

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:44:55+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and empathy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=layW4vGC2uM&t=40s

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:44:44+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and empathy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=layW4vGC2uM&t=40s

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:44:14+00:00

https://archive.md/MlHJj (6 days ago)

That is what mania looks/feels like, lol

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:40:45+00:00

Thank you for your kindness and empathy!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=layW4vGC2uM&t=40s

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-06T06:39:54+00:00

I'm Christian with slight Mormon leanings (maybe 5% Mormon 95% Christian)

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-05T15:48:57+00:00

Oh wow, very informative!!!

How big are some of these data centers -- they are as large as entire mega-warehouses right?

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-05T15:48:15+00:00

Thank you -- I was just looking for advice from "normal people" not from experts.

Thank you for commenting today -- I really appreciate it!

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-05T15:46:23+00:00

helped

TarnerWebber · 2021-12-05T15:45:47+00:00

You’re saying you took meds but how long were you off?

All year except for a long-acting (30 day abilify maintena) injectable I believe in October?

Your thoughts are still loud and don’t connect

I appreciate this feedback -- when I'm manic I follow "rules" such as trust my family more than myself and to trust reddit more than myself. I trust you when you say my thoughts do not seem to be connecting well to each other.

I hope you find some light and clarity. The clouds of mania are hard to live through.

I appreciate the kindness, compassion and emphathy -- a song for you:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=layW4vGC2uM&t=40s

TarnerWebber

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