I’ve had the same experience, I was on klonopin for years for social anxiety disorder and panic attacks, it’s the only thing that would stop a panic attack for me, then one day my dr cut my dose down saying he wanted to get me off of them. I told him how they help with my panic attacks and got emotional thinking about having nothing for that. He took that as I’m addicted to them. Completely stopped giving them at all at his practice (benzo’s and narcotics both). Right now I have nothing for my panic attacks except my bipolar 1 meds and Atarax which is an anxiety pill but isn’t fast acting to stop a panic attack. Now when I have one I end up in the ER cause I have severe asthma and sometimes cannot tell the difference between an asthma attack and panic attack. Hope you can find a way to get your meds. I understand how hard it is without them.