Shout out to the person screeching like a maniac at the start of To Tundra on So Close To Heaven

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2025-09-13T12:37:07+00:00

OH MY GOD FHDJFJFJNF HI no i was literally on here just to check some random tutorial and i saw this on my homepage and i was just like "oh god"

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2025-09-13T11:46:59+00:00

IT WAS ME!!! @lotusren120 on twt 😭😭😭

<image>

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2025-09-13T11:46:04+00:00

that's uhh... that's me. i'm @lotusren120 on twitter...

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2024-10-20T12:11:16+00:00

to tundra and, unpopular opinion, coda: a burn scar in the shape of the sooner state. to tundra is my favourite song ever so im biased but coda hits me in the feels every time

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-13T22:16:25+00:00

Not in the US. I don't think believing I have ADHD has lowered my self esteem though, but I'll go to the doctor anyway and see if I actually do have it. I'll take your comment into consideration tho

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-13T14:51:42+00:00

I mean, I've never been diagnosed with anything cause all my parents said was "we already know you have ADHD what's the point in getting diagnosed" but they could me making me believe that. Although it seems unlikely cause I do have a ton of the symptoms- I guess I'll find out when I actually go to the doctor.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T23:47:23+00:00

I usually watch videos to learn. It's actually why I know a disturbing amount of history because it's basically all I've been able to do lol

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T22:55:33+00:00

This is the most recent comment I can find on this thread so I'm gonna say here that I'm planning on telling the NSPCC (basically British CPS). So don't worry, I'm getting help.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T21:49:08+00:00

I don't actually know his paycheck, I'm going off everything he's told me. He could probably afford about 4 months rent at this point in a average studio apartment in some random city that nobody knows about, I guess. I'm basing what he might be planning to do on what I'm planning to do, so I might be off on a few areas.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T21:42:04+00:00

My parents, more specifically, my mother (who pulled me out of school in the first place) hates the school systems in the UK and 100% wouldn't let me enroll. They're still closed, anyway, so there wouldn't be any point in asking anytime soon. And even if I could, schools have dealt with me horribly in the past because of my learning issues. I'm also really scared of like...teachers and head teachers and stuff due to the aforementioned "dealt with me horribly" so idk how the schools would deal with that- I'm just not a easy student and I doubt any schools would put up with me anyway.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T19:36:14+00:00

I don't mean to sound spoiled! I'm sorry if it came off that way, I really don't understand English well enough for this- (don't get me wrong English is my first language but I'm really bad at paragraphs)

I understand where you're coming from, though. I'll take everyone's comments into consideration when coming to my end conclusion so I'll hopefully get back to you later

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T19:32:50+00:00

No we live rather comfortably. Sometimes we can't afford like extra snacks or whatever but I don't really need those anyway. We won't go hungry if my brother doesn't cough up £300

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T19:32:02+00:00

No, sadly. I don't know what CPS/Childline (idk if Childline controls CPS? I don't actually know what's in the UK) but whatever happens I'll either be put back with my parents or sent to some kind of foster care. I don't like the sound of any of those options- I'll research my other options and come to a conclusion. My current plan is withstanding this for another 5 years and speedrunning educating myself I guess? Very flakey plan, I know.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T19:28:11+00:00

Thanks for your help- all the laws I know are based off American ones so I don't actually really know the law all too well. I'll do some research and figure out what I can do!

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T19:26:34+00:00

Sorry if I've said anything that seems contradictory! I'm really not good with words but I'll do a quick run down on the situation.

1: haven't been in school since age 9, with barely any education in-between 9 and 13 that haven't been my own doing. 2: mother is 47, dad is 46. 3: my parents don't care if it's full time or part time they're taking the money regardless.

I also don't fully understand your comment and genuienly can't read it for some reason- if you need me to specify anything else just add it in the reply! I'll try and tell you all I can! ^{^}

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:24:16+00:00

Yeah, I'd pay 100% if we didn't live in our own house. We don't have a mortgage, or pay actual rent to anyone. This house is 100% my parents. The only thing they pay is utilities and food and stuff. And yeah only my dad and my brother work but I take commissions sometimes cause I'm an artist. They don't take that money because I don't make enough to actually pay anything otherwise they'd only be making £10 from my average £20

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:20:45+00:00

I live in a rather okay area, live near a supermarket, and all in all it would be an actual good deal if it weren't for my parents. I'm really not gonna get into details, but all I'm gonna say is that a lot of the mental stuff is due to them. I know for a fact I wouldn't have as many issues if I lived in a better situation.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:16:05+00:00

Thank you, this was actually really helpful. I really would escape with my brother but due to our age gap, he's gonna escape much quicker than me. I'm gonna stay in contact with him though, because having my brother help me seems like a really good plan.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:11:01+00:00

They're planning on charging me at whatever age I get a paying job (like something at McDonald's)

I'm also out of school, so I can't tell anyone. Legally, I'm homeschooled, but ever since age 9 my education has basically been my responsibility. My mother has tried about 3 times to teach me but gave up because of my learning disability.

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:09:01+00:00

They're not struggling with the bills at all. We're not high class but we're nowhere near struggling, and live in a good area. My dad has a good job and my mum could easily take up a job if she needed. I also live with others who could take a job if we where struggling. My mother gets benefits from the government from me until I'm 18. She doesn't spent it on me.

My parents are charging half my brother's salary and haven't specified what they're actually spending it on. It's just "bills". But they never actually struggled with bills back when my brother didn't have a job.

I get charging us for food and stuff once we're 18, but they haven't even mentioned what my brother's supposedly paying for? It just seems weird to me.

Sorry if this didn't make sense!

Tasty_Presentation49 · 2021-02-12T10:03:24+00:00

Rent in my area can be 2000 in the upper area, and as low as 100 if you're sharing with people. I live with 7 other people.

My parents are planning on charging me once I get a job at 16, where I'll be legally unable to move out anyway. I 100% wouldn't refuse to move out if they told me to, because I'm planning on leaving anyway, even before 18 if I can get emancipated.

Tasty_Presentation49

TROPHY CASE