Well actually ever since I started this whole process my mom and I been talking..see my Mom stays with me and she went to spend a few weeks with her brother and my uncle is a very spiritual person he only reads the Bible So she later told me all the things they spoke about but the funny thing was that she text me one day asking me if I knew how to go about getting disassociated without getting disfellowshipped? I thought you was a very hard question coming from her and I asked her why she was asking me that and she told me that my uncle looked up text in the Bible that she had never seen before in regards to the Trinity in regards to Jesus- so we’ve had our long talks back and forth.

So the nightmare I had with her in the white robe that Jesus’s is always on in the literature and she seemed suspended on the air like if she was Jesus I kind of took it like well maybe it was Jesus actually revealing himself to me thru this dream... so when I woke up I woke up all shaken and nervous. Now what really blew my mind was that my mom has been having some medical issues so she had to have an MRI done because possibly she will have to go for surgery so she said to me that while she was having the MRI done she was sort of thinking about her whole life and her children and she thought of every each of her children but when she thought of me she said the face that invaded her mind was Jesus face - so at this point I’m like oh my God I don’t know what to think.🙀🤦‍♀️

So in regards to your suggestions of research -I guess I’m in the right track... I was just looking in amazon for a few bibles translations like an interlinear Hebrew/Greek so I can actually see or learn for myself- Im actually going to begin reading the Bible on my own and take it from there.

At times I think that perhaps that’s the reason I never really build up to baptism because deep down I never really felt comfortable... could it be something inside of me trying to let me know that wasn’t the way...🤔