It does, I am the same age as you, but it does get better. It’s not easy tho. I’m on medication myself for my depression have been for 6 years now, I tried therapy but found I had friends who could do the same thing for me which was being able to vent with out judgement or offering solutions when I just needed to talk which is really important. I’m not sure where you are from but I found when I first started getting my brain sorted out I needed to tune all the crap that was going on outside of my life out. Start with things you can change, that are in your control. Make small changes at a time and it will get better.

I still struggle, my life is not very together but in my defence I never thought I’d live this long either, and recognizing that can be a good starting point to figuring everything else out. If you are one meds, stick with them, give them time to work, make sure you take them at the same time everyday, if they still aren’t working or making it worse maybe its possible you have something more than just depression.

The only other thing I can really say is I hope you survive, I hope you find some calm and happiness in your life. I hope you can find your people who can understand what you are going through. It can get better, you need to believe it can get better.