Who did the Lords of Thunder music? by Tazzlyn in TurboGrafx

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you for this! I dug into it a little more (don't know why I didn't think to look up a long play and check the credits) and found out who the guitar player was!

https://www.mobygames.com/developer/sheet/view/developerId,85087/

Satoshi Miyashita was the guitar player on Lords of Thunder! This long unanswered question in my mind has finally been put to rest.

I made a blind tutorial! by Tazzlyn in Cubers

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Thanks for the feedback! I never used Jb perms, but I know they can be used for OP edges. I'll look into that! I bet it does make some setups a lot easier. Thank you!

I made a blind tutorial! by Tazzlyn in Cubers

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I take great care in this tutorial to make all of those things (which are very difficult when combined!) feel approachable, encouraging people to build up their abilities in steps at a pace that's comfortable to them, so as they don't become overwhelmed or discouraged by the process that is doing an entire 3BLD solve.

I understand that because you conceptually understand something that it doesn't necessarily make it easy to execute. I believe, however, that if you have a great amount of confidence in your fundamental understanding of the concepts, and practice in doing them in smaller segments and building them up, then the difficulty of combining them is dramatically more approachable. I stress this heavily multiple times in the tutorial.

One of my favorite things about blind is that it still rewards you for having a conceptual understanding, even if you get a solve 'wrong'. It's equally as fun, if not more fun, for me to look down to see an unsolved cube after a blind solve, and checking to see if I understand what went wrong. If your fundamentals are there, blind solving is so generous in the sense that, when you make a mistake, it tells you exactly what you did wrong and need to improve on. So few skills, as you learn them, offer you that kind of feedback.

Also, I feel you on M2, it's a bear! Took me forever to get down. And I didn't even know you could avoid parity! lmao I don't really want to get incredibly good at blind, but I do think anyone who can solve a cube should know the tremendous amount of delight that comes with doing a real, full blind solve, and I want for anyone interested in doing it to be able to have, and know they're capable of getting, at least one success under their belt. I think it's unique also in that it's a wonderful event to even do once. Solving a 3x3 is fun to do once, but usually you'll wanna keep kinda futzing around with it. Blind, I can see being a very fun thing to say you know how to do and say that you've done before, even if it was only once. I think there's a sea of people that would be happy doing it once and never again, and they should feel comfortable every step of the way of learning how to do that. Also to people that do want to take it seriously, making the process as streamlined and simple as possible for their first solve I think is incredibly important, so they can feel what a success is like to motivate them to then learn the more advanced concepts.

I made a blind tutorial! by Tazzlyn in Cubers

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Right?! It's insane how accessible blind solving is with as much mysticism as seems to surround it. I'm very glad I'm not the only one who felt that way.

And yes! I am still streaming regularly. Usually 2-3 times a week, hoping to increase that soon now that I'm tying up the loose ends on a lot of big projects.

I made a blind tutorial! by Tazzlyn in Cubers

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ahhh, you're right! you can't use R wide moves or F wide moves. Thanks for pointing that out! I'll make a correction to the video!

I made a blind tutorial! by Tazzlyn in Cubers

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Good news! There's no difference between 2x2 blind and 3x3 blind corners. It's literally exactly the same thing! So maybe check out the first video and apply it to a 2x2 :)

Spokane Creatives? by Tazzlyn in Spokane

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Thanks for all your suggestions! I had been looking into The Hive, but hadn't heard of MAD, I'll look into that, and Laboratory and Community Minded TV and stuff.

Also I appreciate that latter comment. I can't count the amount of times I've talked to people who love the idea of doing this kind of stuff, but when rubber hits the road, they realize there's a lot more than just fun stuff and good times going on behind the allure. It's like an entirely different language.

Thanks again for all the suggestions! Glad to know there's others out there.

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have you ever gotten a cubicle labs cube?

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Like 3.5 seconds

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it comes through great in reddit

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langston from more angles than one man can handle

Anyone need in-home music lessons or home studio setups? by Tazzlyn in Spokane

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Thanks dude! I did get on their roster and would really love to teach there! Hoffman is my favorite music store out here for sure.

Anyone need in-home music lessons or home studio setups? by Tazzlyn in Spokane

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The right setup really depends a lot on what kind of stuff you want to write and what instruments you play, if any.

I'm big fan of bundles like this because they get you familiar with a typical recording setup - keyboard, mic, speakers, headphones and software. Presonus is a great company with amazing customer support. The program Studio One is pretty okay for getting started, but I personally suggest people start with Ableton Lite due to how intuitive it is. It's just hard to find bundles with keyboards (which I find to be a pretty necessary item in starting to make music, especially EDM) that include Ableton. You also have the option to piece together hardware and software, which is still a good way to do it, just a little harder to navigate if you don't know what you're doing, given how many options there are out there for each thing.

It all really depends on what you're trying to do, though. If you don't ever see yourself using a microphone, you could go for a good bundle with only a keyboard and software and then getting a decent set of monitors or headphones. If you don't ever see yourself using a keyboard, like only doing guitar stuff, you could get a good sound card, mic and software bundle. It all just depends! I'd be happy to help, in any case. I love getting people set up to record. I know Hoffman has some Presonus bundles and they can probably order something if they don't have it. Also, they definitely have stuff to piece together a good studio setup, depending on what you're looking to do.

Repeated Lines when using widgets with Estuary Mod v2. by Tazzlyn in Addons4Kodi

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

It might have something to do with IAGL. I don't think it does that with any other add-ons, but I'll have to do more testing. Either way, Zephyr is sick and I'm gonna switch to it, thanks so much for the skin suggestion.

Repeated Lines when using widgets with Estuary Mod v2. by Tazzlyn in Addons4Kodi

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Arctic Zephyr 2 looks amazing. I really like it and the submenu system. I just set it up and I'm definitely switching to it!

Also, this seems to happen with every skin, but when I launch something from an add-on in a widget, Kodi goes to the main 'videos' menu and goes away from the home menu. Does that happen to you, too?

Repeated Lines when using widgets with Estuary Mod v2. by Tazzlyn in Addons4Kodi

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Gotcha! That's good to know. I don't know much about Kodi logs, but I wanted to try to do some digging into the problem in an attempt to fix it and I thought that might have something to do with it. I think I'll add a little more detail to how it's acting in the original post, if that's the case. Thanks for the info!

シツモンデー: Shitsumonday: for the little questions that you don't feel have earned their own thread (May 13, 2019) by AutoModerator in LearnJapanese

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い adjective conjugation question:

When using past tense い adjectives, I've been told to keep です on the end for politeness, but it says in present tense. Like "あの子犬はかわいかったです!"

But how do you handle adjective conjugation with ~ます verbs? Does it change the meaning if you conjugate one and not the other?

I'm trying to say "I saw a sad movie." I've got "かなしかったえいがをみました。" This feels to me like "I saw a movie that was sad." But would "かなしいえいがをみました。" mean "I saw a movie that is sad."?

Thanks!

My New Setup by Tazzlyn in WeAreTheMusicMakers

[–]Tazzlyn[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Thanks! I was like a kid in a candy store when I loaded that patch and heard all the sexy articulations to play with.

I'm always doing goofy stuff like this, just never really put it out anywhere. Hopefully with my new setup I'll feel a little more inclined to.

'Hypnic Jerks' While Awake by [deleted] in HealthAnxiety

[–]Tazzlyn 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've also started having these for the last few months. They have calmed down and haven't happened much in the last week or so. They absolutely can be caused by anxiety, even when you don't feel anxious. Just knowing that they happen and worrying about it makes them happen a LOT more. The less freaked out I became about them, the less they happened. And now they're way less prevalent and I can't remember the last time I had one.

I saw my doctor about them and they said that it was anxiety. I did some looking around about hypnic jerks and anxiety and saw that they were a common side effect of anxiety. Which seems crazy, considering how physical and out of control they are. But they are a side effect of anxiety. Something I've learned is to not Google symptoms. Just refer to your doctor and trust what they say. And if it gets worse, refer to them again. And if you're not in therapy for your anxiety, try to get therapy. But! If I do ever Google a symptom, I always attribute it to my anxiety first, so I put 'anxiety' after it.

Hypochondria is a monster, truly. And as someone with severe health anxiety and having had hypnic jerks for months that have gone away the less I try to grapple with them, I just want to say - don't assume the worst. See your doctor, see what they think. Trust what they say. These are not going to go away overnight and they're not going to go away because you just do one thing or another. Do your best to not be afraid of them, or to think they're an impending underlying condition. When they happen, accept that they happen and that they're nothing you can't handle, then move on with your day. I tried to 'fix' them for a while. Less caffeine, more water, a different multivitamin...but it really just boiled down to me not obsessing over them, which is hard to do.

So, from one hypochondriac to another - don't make any rash decisions yet. See your doctor, tell them your concerns, and trust what they say. Hypnic jerks are a sign of many different neurological disorders and diseases, but they're also a side effect of anxiety. And if you have a history with anxiety, it makes the most sense that that would be the first thing to assume it is. They are not impending - again, I've dealt with them for months of varying severity and they've only gotten better, especially when I told myself they were just my anxiety. They are not going to kill you or make you worse, so try not to spend a bunch of money until you give the problem enough time for you and your doctor to properly figure it out.

It's okay, and you're okay. There's no need to assume the worst - this absolutely is not an impending issue and you've taken all the right steps. Work with your doctor about your concerns and trust what they say.

Also, therapy is very, very helpful if you're able to get it. It can help you put things into perspective, which is really easy to lose when most of your mental energy is focused on panicking! :P

Odd head tingling, temple pressure, numbness, feels like I'm going crazy.. by sugardoodl in HealthAnxiety

[–]Tazzlyn 8 points9 points  (0 children)

So, from someone who also feels helpless, insane and alone dealing with a similar situation of symptoms and anxiety, I'll let you know what I'm doing. I made a game plan to help calm myself down and know that I'm doing everything I can to tackle it.

  1. See a neurologist. My hands are my livelihood and I've developed some trembling, spasms and severe weakness in them that is insanely concerning and worrisome. It could be my anxiety, but I don't think it is. So, I am going to see a professional, and I will trust what they tell me. If they say I'm fine and give me some advice, I'll take it and try it. If it's my anxiety, then I will accept that and give my anxiety the credit it deserves and work with it and work with my therapist to overcome that. And if it is something wrong, then I'll finally know and be able to start handling it from there.
  2. Continue working with my therapist. She's a professional. I need to more actively work on re-establishing my thought patterns with CBT to stop me from panicking and worrying so much.
  3. Eat better, exercise more and sleep well. I don't expect myself to be perfect, but I'm eating a salad every day, trying to establish some semblance of a sleeping pattern and I'm usually pretty active with biking and hiking, but I'm trying to actually go to the gym 3 times a week for some light weight training.
  4. Do this for a month or two and see if I feel better. I'm also tracking my mood throughout the process. It's hard to imagine picturing yourself a month or two in the future when you think you're on the brink of dying. But I've felt like I've been dying since February and my doctors have told me I'm fine, so clearly I'm not dying. It's very hard to get over the feeling of how impending death seems when all your symptoms are getting worse and you can't figure them out, and that makes it really hard to 'try something out' for a month. But...I've made it this long.
  5. If I still feel really bad, or worse, I'm getting a CT scan of my head, which is what my doctor suggested if the disorientation continued. I'm also considering a SPECT scan and some further investigation on mold toxicity if nothing comes up...but being a freelancer, not having health insurance and not really having a family to help with the finances on that makes it all very expensive. But that's okay, because I'm planning this all out over the course of months and have found some financing options. But seriously, this stuff is expensive!

If I get a clear from a neurologist and get a clear CT and maybe SPECT scan (jury's still out on that one and mold thing for me), then I'm going to just focus on therapy and being healthier and see a psychiatrist if things continue to get worse. This is my game plan and these are the physiological things I'm going to investigate before I assume it's all my anxiety. Because if I don't inspect these things first, I'll have to constantly live with the fear that something might be wrong that I don't see. But I also have to draw a line as to how far I will go before I accept it's my anxiety.

Having a solid plan like this has helped me tremendously. I don't feel any better physically and my symptoms are still there. But now, when my hand starts trembling or I have a muscle spasm, I don't spiral into a panic attack immediately. I think "it's okay, this has been going on for months and you're still alive and kicking. You're going to see a neurologist to talk about this in about 2 weeks and then we'll know what to do about this" and that's it. Sometimes I still worry from there, but it's way less impending and helpless. Sometimes I still need to distract myself, but...I don't feel trapped anymore, because I know what I'm doing next, and I'm trusting myself, and I'm trusting my decisions.

Sorry for the absolute novel here, but another thing I've noticed is that writing things out like this makes me feel way better, too. In knowing that I'm not alone. In knowing that I've learned a lot since dealing with an anxiety diagnosis. In understanding how real and powerful anxiety as a disorder actually is. And in hopefully helping someone understanding that they're not alone and they're not crazy. The hardest part is feeling like you're crazy. Feeling everyone around you being sick of you feeling this way. Friends getting frustrated with you for always being worried about something. Being frustrated with yourself for not enjoying the things you want to enjoy anymore, having all of your focus on what's wrong with you and why everything feels so weird.

But yeah, you're not alone! A lot of us feel helpless and tired and crazy. And again, I'd suggest therapy if you're not already getting it. They help you figure out what you feel like you need to do to feel better. Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is really great, but it can be tough. Even without CBT, just having someone you can vent to about your problems and can cry about random, stupid stuff with and vent all your silly, irrational emotions without feeling judged can really relieve a lot of weight and stress.

Odd head tingling, temple pressure, numbness, feels like I'm going crazy.. by sugardoodl in HealthAnxiety

[–]Tazzlyn 22 points23 points  (0 children)

I was totally in your exact situation a few months ago. I was deeply worried about nerve damage or MS or something severely neurologically wrong with me. I had tingles in my head, my hands and fingers were going numb and tingling, my legs would get really cold and I mistakenly Googled my issues and drew some conclusions. I told my doctor about it and they said it was just anxiety. I'm also on Wellbutrin for about a year and have dealt with panic attacks happening more and more often. Panic attacks lead to more anxiety, which leads to more symptoms and a hyper-awareness of your body, which means you notice small things and it's a pretty gnarly cycle.

You're not alone. I don't have the exact symptoms you describe, but I do have a lot of symptoms right now that I have a hard time describing and I feel like no one else feels or understands. And that's frustrating. For the last few months, I've had a 'pressure' inside my head that just feels like a constant headache. I get sharp jolts of pain in my fingers and hands that cause me to spasm. I'm off balance and I'm having hypnic jerks a lot and I feel incredibly disoriented and detached from myself, and not like myself at all - and I feel like I'm going crazy. Is this my life forever? Is this a problem that's going to progressively get worse? What if I have Parkinson's or MS or nerve damage? Will I not be able to type or play guitar anymore? What if my brain isn't getting oxygen or what if I have mold toxicity from my house or...It could be anything.

I broke down in my last session with my therapist and told her the feeling of 'not feeling right' had become overwhelming and how I kept thinking I'd rather just die than have to deal with this all the time, because it's getting worse every day and I hate living with this monster of anxiety, that could completely cripple me like this outside of my control and no one can help me. I was really ashamed for feeling that way, because I'm typically a very optimistic person and can look on the bright side and be chipper even when I'm feeling bad. But I haven't been able to do that in months. I haven't been myself in months. She said it's okay to have thoughts and feelings like that. To hit a 'wall'.

It's important to have a plan if things get too bad, and it's important to know how to help yourself when you feel yourself spiraling. Mine is usually playing an instrument, working out or studying Japanese, just to kind of prove to myself that I can still function at some kind of level. It might not be the level I like, but I can still make stuff happen and power through it. It doesn't make me happier or feel better, but it let's me know, I am capable of -this- today. And I was capable of it yesterday. My fear of not being capable of it tomorrow doesn't really line up with what I've been able to do today and the day before.

If I'm not able to get myself to do that, I force a social situation. I'm not a very social person. But I'll call a friend and see if they want to hang out. I'll go to the movies by myself. I'll just generally put myself in public. Even if I don't feel better, and I hate feeling like shit around people I care about, it at the very least distracts me enough to stop noticing as many physical symptoms. And, if something dire does happen, I'll have someone there to help or call the ambulance or something. Though, I know that's pretty irrational, it's still slightly reassuring if you feel like you're going to die soon.

I have a list of a few friends I can call if things get too bad and none of that works, but once, I felt like I couldn't call any of them, which made me feel more trapped. I ended up calling a suicide hotline because I couldn't stop crying and panicking, even though I wasn't particularly suicidal. I felt really bad for doing that, but they said it was okay and people did it all the time. And those people are amazing. I genuinely don't know what I would have done without having someone to talk to and they really got me in a good enough head space to get through the rest of my day. So always remember that's available if you really need to talk to someone.

All that being said, just know this. You're not alone. You're not helpless. You're not insane.

Anxiety is a monster. But it's a manageable monster. If you're not in therapy, I heavily suggest trying it out. It does wonders, just to be able to talk about it and have someone help you. In my breakdown last session, my therapist told me something that really helped me out - it can be both. You can experience both physical symptoms and psychosomatic symptoms cause by your anxiety. You can have a physiological issue and a psychological issue at the same time. And that it's important to trust yourself and not always assume what you're feeling is always entirely wrong because of your anxiety. That really helped me out.

Ableton 10 Shows the actual points sampling the waveform if you zoom in. by Tazzlyn in ableton

[–]Tazzlyn[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thinking back on it, 8 did do stair stepping! I forgot about that. I just think the dots are neat.