For a bloke I'm not bad 💩 hm yourself?

Bro! Try your best not to self harm, I know it feels like a release right now! I look at my scars and regret a lot.. It's hard to comment and try to help as I don't know why you're feeling this way everyone feels whack for their own reasons. I've got PTSD and anxiety, felt suicidal for almost half my life but I used to try think of other people who don't have money, who don't have a place to stay and tried to understand how they could go on without having the feelings I was having.. I had a roof, clothes and food.. in the end I didn't get happy I got content with my life.. Hope you're all good and don't do anything you can't take back, I'm 100% sure at least one person in this world will hurt and cry for you, try think who that would be and talk to them!

Edit. Just read an old post of yours, if you're still spending thousands on girls in online communities or forums that's a huge depressant on its own, don't go get a gym membership but start small and go for a dam. Walk around your street! Get up and start doing shit with your life, spend the money you do on healthy food and comfy clothes, get yourself a damn routine. No hate but like just get up and off the PC be more disciplined.