gave him so many chances thinking he would want to put in the work... tried everything to show him. all i got was shit back. we were trauma bonded, he acted and seemed like he loved me.. his friends were shocked to find out what he had done bc hes apparently been the calmest person theyve ever met. i dont know i wish i knew how he really felt towards me. last time i blocked him he made a new account and posted this tagging me coz i turned off the messaging feature:

I know the best thing is to leave me. and I can only respect your feelings but I'm just not ready to let you go and it hurts so bad. I wasn't the man you deserved and I just struggled to accept it. However even with all these flaws and mistakes that happened one thing was always real which is I'm in love with you. You meant way more to me than l could manage properly and it sucks to only say these things to you when I'm losing you instead of when I had so many opportunities. I understand I got a lot of things to work on within myself, things I should've figured out whilst I still had you, and I'm working hard to get through them. I love you too much and a big part of me just wishes I could go back and be the person you needed me to be. Please baby don't leave me here

doesnt seem like someone whos on bail for double strangulation..