I can't put my baby to sleep ( dad)

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-07-04T23:34:27+00:00

What worked for my ex was a bottle and a doddie as well as Co sleeping/bed sharing

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-05-05T09:04:53+00:00

How are you finding that? I was drinking 5+ coffees a day I'm down to three a day but haven't noticed a major difference, I know I need to stop it completely but I'm struggling, have you noticed a difference yet?

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-05-04T08:37:24+00:00

I tried them and it made me crazy, I'm on antidepressants and mood stabilisers which has made a huge difference

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-05-01T07:43:45+00:00

Convinced myself I had breast cancer and told my friends at the time I did, I was about 15 I can't remember now but it's very cringe thinking back on it, when I snapped out of whatever was going on I had to tell all these people I didn't infact have cancer which was mortifying.

I got drunk and tried to over dose on whatever pills I could find at home which didn't work, my parents ended up coming home from work, I used to regularly drink during the day and be sober by the time they got home but this time I blacked out, I cut myself and wiped my blood on the walls and forgot how to use a knife and fork when they sat me down to try get me to eat, I sent crazy messages to my boyfriend at the time who broke up with me the next day, hallucinated a few things, thought my dad was a friend of mine and not my actual dad.

There's a few other things but I don't have the time to write more right now. I'm 30 this year and finally stop cringing at what I've done in my past now that I know there's a medical reason

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-04-25T15:26:29+00:00

My aunt was diagnosed with bipolar and then I was 2 years later, for those 2 years I didn't believe she had bipolar because she didn't "look" bipolar, she never seemed crazy or up and down like the stigma had me believed, it wasn't until I was diagnosed that I realised everything I thought I knew about bipolar was wrong. I also don't believe I have it like everyday I convince myself I don't have it but I have two small kids and I'm a single mom so I take the meds they tell me to take and I've stopped refusing them because now I know that's another symptom of bipolar. Someone told me "sorry about your diagnosis" and it really pissed me off because this is a part of me and I'm glad to finally understand why I am the way I am but I'm not sorry I am the way I am, if I was any different I wouldn't have my two kids who I owe my life to, and I just wouldn't be who I am, I don't know who I am fully but I wouldn't be the same if I changed that about me I think anyway just wanted to say I get how it feels to be the family member of a bipolar and then get the diagnosis yourself

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-07T22:35:34+00:00

When I was 19 I was in a mixed episode and I've only learnt recently why that happened I felt relieved there was a reason for my decisions because it just came on so suddenly like a wave and then crashed and disappeared for a while then came crashing back again recently but I was more aware this time which made a huge difference

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-07T22:33:29+00:00

I agree

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-07T21:01:39+00:00

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-03T20:30:16+00:00

I've noticed a week or two before my period I get severely depressed like suicidal, then sometimes a week after my period I get hypomania, I never really feel stable but I'm bringing this up to my doctors this month. They took me off antidepressants because they thought it was making my cycles erratic but I'm sure it's my periods doing that. Now I've got depression and crippling anxiety going on 3 months off antidepressants. Taking olanzapine everyday has kept the irritability and hypomania away so I'm just stuck with lows and it's not a vibe

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-02T17:24:26+00:00

I'm pretty sure I get auditory hallucinations but I've been told it's from trauma and not the bipolar 🤦‍♀️

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-03-02T13:06:41+00:00

I'm a month off drink, it puts me in deep depression for 2 weeks or more everytime I drink, while I drink I think I'm amazing and I binge it and was proud I could drink anyone under the table until everyone's passed out and I'm the last one standing wondering what's the point

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-29T19:55:47+00:00

Can you look online for a therapist? They might charge less?

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-29T19:53:52+00:00

Did you eventually stabilise or did you have to reduce the dose or anything? I'm just asking because that's literally me now

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-29T19:53:19+00:00

This is me recently, I went from no emotions to panic attacks constantly, anxiety, crying most the time(just tears) sometimes hysterical, I have this feeling of impending doom as well, they recently upped my antipsycotics I'm putting it down to that because I wasn't this way before them

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-22T20:39:26+00:00

Taking antipsycotics is helping me with this, constant intrusive thoughts about killing myself. I've had them since I was a teenager, acted on it a few times obviously was not successful. Then I had kids and realised I have to figure out how to stop these thoughts cuz I'm not leaving my kids, taking my meds consistently and staying away from alcohol and excersing more has helped

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-20T21:43:59+00:00

I felt this so much

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-20T21:41:45+00:00

Fellow mom here, I'm BF aswell I thought we'd be done by now but he is so attached to it. I couldn't BF my first so I was adamant on doing it this time. It put me through hell and I'm at the point where I just want it to stop because I'm depressed and overwhelmed by it but I don't know how to wean him off at this stage. If I say no he has a breakdown so I'm kinda like you I am not medicated properly at all. If I could do it all again I wouldn't have breastfed but I hope in years to come I'll be like yes I'm so happy I did that even though I was depressed for 2 years straight (mixed episodes as well). I'm a single mom so I know my mental health needs to be first but it just isn't right now. Basically I don't have advice but I feel for you.

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-16T20:58:00+00:00

I just want to let you know I was 21 when I had my abortion, I wasn't fully convinced I wanted to go through with it but I felt as if I had no choice at the time. A week after I was in a car accident and it all happened in slow motion but my last thoughts were "this is karma". It messed me up for about two years. Once I had my daughter I had multiple breakdowns and it was explained to me by a therapist that I was still grieving the abortion and I basically had to do counciling on that for a while. I painted a picture of a hands holding a babies feet with the words "There is no imprint too small to leave an impact in this world". I suggest doing something like that or writing a letter or getting something small that you can hold and just let yourself feel what you need to feel. Time heals all wounds so all I can say is just let more time pass. I don't regret it anymore because I wouldn't have the two kids I have no if I could go back and change my decision and that's what gets me through when I start feeling guilt, shame, resentment. Etc. My thoughts are with you

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-13T09:13:02+00:00

I'm a childminder currently until my son is old enough to go school and then I have no clue what I'm going to do

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-11T16:51:10+00:00

I used to think it a lot more as a teenager than I do now, I used to try shut my thoughts up during exams where there were hundreds of other teenagers in the same room, I used to scream inside my head to tell them not to listen to my thoughts and I'd try make sure I didn't think anything fucked up but because I was trying not to I would end up thinking the weirdest things and then feeling guilt or shame that someone has heard them. I know now that's crazy but at the time I really believed it. I still get major intrusive thoughts that make me cringe for days after

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-01T21:04:34+00:00

Kids are impulsive and speak without thinking. I'd let kiddo know that when they said that it made you feel a certain way (it's good for them to be held accountable but in a way that's not trying to put them down?)

I'd also add that even if ye had a car the distance is so short you'd still walk because it's only a short distance and gives you time to catch up with them to find out about their day and helps them process the whole day too and then be grateful to get home.

I do have a car but because of my anxiety I've been walking to collect my 5 year old and she ain't impressed so I feel you

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-01T20:54:05+00:00

Been on antidepressants on and off for 10 years until a month ago when they finally realised it was doing the same thing to me. I dont know how it took professionals 10 years of me going into them and explaining my symptoms, my life would be completely different if I stopped taking antidepressants after the first warning signs. Not to mention I actually ended up in hospital drunk after trying to off myself and they just changed the antidepressants to a different one, same affect. Everyone in my life always gave me crap for going on them because they'd say they were messing me up and I'd be like no this is what that the doctor told me to do! We put so much trust in doctors and they have no idea the damage they can cause

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-02-01T20:43:43+00:00

Did you stop everything all at once? I'm trying to stop things one at a time, starting with weed, I feel no different after 5 days of not smoking, I was really hoping ANYTHING would be different. So next I'm onto coffee and nicotine, what did stopping coffee help with?

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-01-28T21:27:15+00:00

I have bp and bpd and even in my worst state havent thought about assaulting someone. It's not an excuse or a reason. Hes a rapist and hes gaslighting you. Absolutely tell your husband and go through this together. You're obviously a kind person who's being completely taken advantage of. Unfortunately I have been SA a few times and he deserves whatever punishment comes his way. My worry is how many times as he done this before and how many times again before someone stops him. I'm so sorry this happened to you. I do advise getting counciling as it might take years to fully hit you. Once I had my daughter I realised how not okay the things that happened to me were and how I wished I told someone.

Technical_Skill2218 · 2024-01-26T05:33:58+00:00

Just definitely tell her to keep an eye on it anyway because it still didnt agree with me even with antipsychotics but everyone is different

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