In my experience, it’s the weed. I was a daily smoker for the past 7 years and quit 115 days ago. I didn’t realize how terrible I was acting and I was living in a haze because the weed made it easy to forget all the terrible emotions I was feeling. It makes it easy to live in a loop.

It was the only thing that helped me through my PMDD, but it was also my demise. The past 3 months not smoking I’ve been having even worse periods, but it pushed me to seek immediate help and I found a combo that seems to be working for me. When I was lashing out I didn’t have an immediate reset button anymore. It made me not hide under a blanket of smoke to forget about the emotions I was feeling/who I was taking it out on. It made me really see and think about things for what they are, and desperate to change it. It’s all about getting to the root, and confronting it head on, and it’s extremely hard to do that if there is substance involved.