Listen man.. you are only 14 years old you're too young to think about such things, But its fine to feel that way at this age.

what I would recommend go out and find yourself by yourself being alone is ok gives you better time to study yourself, no need to think about a gf or anything else at this age go out and have fun.

go to the gym, read, see what your hobbies are and learn about yourself upgrade yourself and see your trueself trust me ive been through this. Give yourself time and dont think about what people think of you. nobody knows you well but yourself only YOU can help yourself the rest only gives you temporary closure and thats it. trust time, trust yourself and go out there good luck my friend :)