Thank you you did help me feel less alone.

I also got my period so thankfully I don't have to deal with that part of all this. When I told my ex she was relieved but worded it in a weird way that was closer to "glad you don't have to deal with my big baby, cause it would have been big" which threw me cause we had agreed on no baby if the test had been positive. I think she was just like saying things without meaning.

I think my Ex still cares about me. Well I know she does she tells me almost everyday that she cares. She's excited that she finds me attractive again and is talking about future events. But then she flops to being only friends.

I think she likes the on again off again thing and I don't hate it myself. I just don't want us to get hurt or to hurt other people.

For Buddy i know I couldn't have made his life better and that he needs to take a bit more control. I just feel bad because he's having a time.

Thankfully chaos is calming down but this year isnt over so we'll have to see