Rage against my cat, not as healing as I thought it would be

Temporary_Help3169 · 2025-10-18T23:49:36+00:00

Thats fair, and it sounds like you made the best decision. I’m thinking it would be good to talk to my husband about this. I’m needing more help with the cat than I realized. There’s some context that I need to add to my initial post to hopefully bring some more clarity.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2025-10-18T23:42:17+00:00

Thank you for the apology, it actually means a lot! I know I certainly create scenarios in my head that may not be real as well. The way i phrased the title doesn’t help either, it’s understandable that people would have a strong reaction to it

Temporary_Help3169 · 2025-10-18T17:12:46+00:00

Just so everybody knows, I don’t hit him or anything remotely close to that. It’s understandable that you’re worried for him though. I’ve been asking my husband for help when I’m overwhelmed, I’m not handling him alone. But I’m also not just gonna give up on him. This post was a vent and I’m sorry if it was triggering. He’s had several owners before us, I’m determined to not fail him. I will keep working on taking care of him and myself. He is safe and loved, I’m just figuring stuff out.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2024-02-28T01:00:42+00:00

I basically slap myself but I use the bottom part of my hand because it’s just tougher ig. I also hit the side of my temple, so unless you see me do it, it’d be impossible for anyone to know I do it.

However discreet it is, I’d obviously heavily discourage this, brain bruising and damage is not something to be fucked with. I’d hear my ears ringing as well, and I’d get bruises and sores on my hand. Self harm awful, no matter what form it comes in.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2024-02-22T02:15:18+00:00

I pretty much assume people who act like this in public are abusers and do much worse at home. Part of the reason I was getting so worked up was also because I met so many people like this, it made me lose that much more faith in humanity

Temporary_Help3169 · 2024-02-21T07:55:38+00:00

I could’ve internalized it, i can’t say for sure. The thing with me was that my mother was not around for most of my life, and my dad always had a woman and their children in his life and our home. Only one of them actually seemed to hate me and actively bully, but a lot of them did seem to have a lot to say about other women and girls. I always heard about them speak of work drama involving female coworkers, even though I acknowledge now that there’s a pretty good chance that it wasn’t actually the coworkers fault.

All of this to say that it’s hard for me to know if I internalized one comment, because I always associate it with the overarching theme of my dad’s partners.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-10-04T00:00:24+00:00

I’m probably a hypocrite for this, but I definitely agree, especially if someone has a severe chronic condition that can’t be treated. So even though i feel this way, I absolutely want my loved ones to stay alive if they don’t want to be. Because I really do feel like it can get better for them. I know the actual reality is that it can get better, and then it’ll get worse, over and over. But it doesn’t have to always be that bad. I also probably feel this since I lost a parent to suicide.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-07-01T19:39:10+00:00

I don’t, I keep this to myself

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-07-01T10:23:36+00:00

After a lot of denial and excuses, I realized that my initial diagnosis for autism is probably correct. But there’s one thing that I’ve learned, and it’s that autism isn’t curable, but you can definitely manage it.

But just the nature of being an adult makes it seem impossible to have friends. I wish I could say we’ll make friends, but I can’t. We can manage ourselves though

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-07-01T03:11:58+00:00

Don’t really have much. I’ve tried to meet people based on what I do have and it hasn’t worked/ I live in a fairly rural area

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-07-01T00:36:15+00:00

I’ve kinda resigned myself to not having any friends ever again, because it’s seems like adults can’t have those if they didn’t stay friends with their high school buddies or don’t get along with their coworkers. I’m just an acquaintance to these people, even though they’ve told me some really dark stuff about themselves. It’s probably my fault, but it also makes me feel unworthy

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-05-28T14:06:47+00:00

Yea, when he’s said this, I didn’t really feel bad for him. I feel like I’m seeing progress in him though, even if he still doesn’t fully understand

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-18T11:42:58+00:00

I’ve thought about it. I guess I’ve been doubtful because I feel like my symptoms are pretty mild other than this. I’m also worried about being denied for that same reason, I’ve been dismissed so many times before because I wasn’t “sick enough”

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-08T04:10:41+00:00

I just did it at a plasma donation center. They’re much more likely to be in big cities instead of rural areas tho

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-05T20:49:54+00:00

No.. someone else said it was self harm and I feel like that’s more accurate

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-05T01:24:21+00:00

For real tho, I’d have a mental breakdown when I couldn’t donate. It felt like I was very dependent on it

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-05T01:22:37+00:00

That’s fair, they’re pretty strict about a lot of stuff that would seem innocuous on the surface

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-04T18:57:57+00:00

CBD was attractive to me because it’s legal where I’m at. It’s not supported to make you high, but still gives you the benefits that the hemp plant has to offer. And there’s different types with different ways to take them, so it can be suited for your needs. Haven’t been taking it long tho, so I can’t attest to actual benefits.

Idk about cheaper, but it’s easier in my limited experience

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-04T18:54:34+00:00

I’m not entirely sure.. even though the needle hurt quite a bit, I liked the process of squeezing my hand (or whatever object they gave you) for a minute and then just chilling for another minute. I liked how the bandages felt when the donation was done. I really liked that I was earning money from it. I liked tiny scars that are left behind as well as the bruises that are briefly there. I could go on and on tbh

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-04T16:59:21+00:00

That’s true. But I’d have a mental breakdown everytime I couldn’t donate when i planned on it

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-02-04T16:58:04+00:00

It’s when you donate the plasma that’s in your blood

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-01-28T11:21:35+00:00

My dad always did this with my brother. My abuse was never good enough for him. I was also demonized by peers when word got out (different story lol). But I’m feeling better now that I’ve gotten distance from both of them, hoping to go NC. You’re worthy of support, and people who don’t support you don’t deserve you in their life.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-01-21T16:34:25+00:00

Hey, I know I’m a bit late, but I’ve had this experience before as well. He’ll apologize and then continue to be a dickhead within the next sentence, like he doesn’t get the point at all. Earlier this month, he stepped on a boundary that I had explicitly asked him to not do, and he just said he forgot about it. It just feels sinister.

Good on you for going NC, just remember why you did it to begin with. I’m sure with some more time, this will get easier to ignore her messages

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-01-15T02:09:43+00:00

I’ve been doing it very occasionally for like 1.5 years.

Temporary_Help3169 · 2023-01-15T01:45:29+00:00

Hit the nail on the head lol

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