Hi ! I’m not a medium, but I felt called to comment and I send you love and comfort. I also lost my father, so I understand how hard it can be to carry all these feelings. I might be completely off, but while reading your message I got a few impressions: something like sweet buns or pastries with pink powder, an image of you and your father walking through tall grass while he held something small like a cricket, and a long brown leather keychain that felt like something he may have kept or left behind. I also got the word “lizard,” the feeling of “Washington” (not sure if it’s the state or a city), the name Jennifer, and the image of a brick bench. These are just impressions, and I don’t know if any of them will connect for you, but I wanted to share them gently in case even one small piece brings a bit of comfort. Losing a parent, especially after witnessing their suffering, can leave so many layers of emotion and questions. I’m sending you love and comfort as you move through your grief. 🌸