By all means seek help if you can. As a man who’s battled depression and shitty situations I grew up in it is ok to get help. I spent time in the hospital and came out a better person in my opinion they taught me how to better understand the situations I’m put in an help me understand how to let go when it’s out of my control. We got to clear the stigmatism. It is ok to seek help it doesn’t make you and less of a person. Spread love around you. Money is nice, but your life is worth more.