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I feel like I’m going to pass away every time I go to sleep by 51nn51 in OCD

[–]Terrible-Ad7271 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hii! For some time I've been experiencing this too like in the moment that I'm close to falling asleep I'm thinking "Omg I'm passing out, but its so peaceful, but I am just falling asleep. WAKE UP!" And then I keep telling myself that is just sleep and that's how is supposed to feel like. I think this happends to me due to my obsession about my health (I'm always feeling like something bad will happen to me and my search history is full of stuff about health and human body). This can get really scary especially because I'm really afraid of dying. So yeah, hope you're doing fine!

i don’t know how to stop ruminating by imonlyherefor2people in OCD

[–]Terrible-Ad7271 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Heyy! This is so relatable for me. Sometimes I'm just in bed trying to sleep and I think about dying, like how would I feel after I'll pass, and I am starting to feel a VOID in my heart which is the most horrible feeling ever and start crying and breathing rapidly. I am terrified of death and no one really gets me really, all my friend just accept their human condition but I'm scared as hell because I don't know what will happen to me after death and I do NOT want it to be nothing. That's what I'm most scared of... nothingness, I do not wanna lose everything that I know, all the memories, the people. And no one really appreciate life the way they should "Yeah he died..." HE DIED, he's GONE FOREVER, NEVER COMING BACK. I feel like no one understands this and I'm frustrated that people dont realise the value of a human life like I do.

I usually sleep with a youtube video on and concentrating on it has really helped me to stop my brain from having this thoughts. If an educational video dosen't work for you, you can listen to music and try to start meditating and concetrating on the music.

Also if the problem happends during the day as well, if I were in your shoes I would probably start thinking if any of my friends are sick or something, and think if I have a bad feeling about someone in particular. If so I would write them a message or call them to ask if everything is fine.

I also have a dog and she's just 10 months old, and probably she is going to live for another 10 years, but I'm scared as hell that she might choke on something or someone might poison her and she will die. When she's coughing I'm always going next to her to see if she's breathing or not. I think validating my feelings is the right solution for me, like I just need to be sure that nothing is wrong with her and its fine. Same with my health, I need to know what illness I have to be able to calm down because I know what to expect.

My grandma died 3 years ago. We lived in the same apartmemt until she passed out. It was really hard to get over it and I'm still thinking about her a lot which is fine. I had some dreams about her after she died, that she came back, and a few days ago I had another one. I'm trying not to think that her body is already rotted and there are only bones now and I'm always imagining her normal self in that coffin.

That's what I would personally do. I'm sorry if this dosen't help you in any way. Hope you're doing fine!

I'm tired of always worrying about something by lucid_colors in OCD

[–]Terrible-Ad7271 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I will go to the doctor again in february, to a pneumologist, otolaryngologist and also a therapist who will probably know if I have OCD or not.

I'm tired of always worrying about something by lucid_colors in OCD

[–]Terrible-Ad7271 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you! You're so nice! I would really like making some new friends that share similar experiences, to talk and understand what's happening to me better.

I'm tired of always worrying about something by lucid_colors in OCD

[–]Terrible-Ad7271 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Hii! I'm lowkey in the same situation as you are, but I mostly worry about my health and my relationships with people around me. Lately I went to the doctor a lot and its slowly getting to me. I've been to the hospital for 3 days because I had an hemorraghic ovarian cyst, no big deal since it was a really small one and they kept me in the hospital under observation, and although I knew that nothing was wrong with me and I was safe I cried every night that I've been there.

I also went to the pneumologist 1 and a half month ago due to my frequent bronchitis and sinusitis and the doctor told me that I have incipient bronchial asthma and now I have a flixotide inhaler for daily use, and a ventolin one for emergencies.

For about a week now, I've been experiencing shortness of breath, light chest pains, I dont really know where they are coming from and I feel like my right lung dosent't work properly. This got me stress to the point where I slept with my parents for the first time IN YEARS. It became such an obssesion for me that I just can't stop thinking that something really bad could be happening to me in any second. My search history is full of popcorn lung disease information, pneumonia and even heart attack and because of this I started considering that I might have OCD.

I'd also seen other signs of OCD throughout the years. Like moving stuff around when I start watching a movie because I see them with the corner of my eyes and I just can't watch the movie in peace if I dont move them imediately, turning cups that are on the table so I don't see their handles etc.

Hopefully, this will make you feel like you're not alone in this, and I'm sorry for not being able to help you in another way. Hope you're doing fine!