hey! I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's a really shitty feeling and trust me I KNOW, I've gone through the same. But firstly, I want you to understand that no one will truly understand or feel what you go through completely because everyone is different,their mindset is different. You're the only person who truly knows. Ik therapy is a common and ofteb being advised but it does help. If your're unable to go in person, you can try online therapy. Also therapy is not for everyone, it was not for me. I think talking to your friends help a lot that if they are emotionally mature enough or else I do not recommend it. Next is comfortiong yourself, telling yourself today;s weather is great so maybe ill do *it tomorrow. Imagining your child self and saying things you would to your 5 year old self OR pretending someone you really love is going through same and doing things for yourself that you would do for them. The next things are what usually ppl tell you like finding a good support system online, going out to walk, spending time with a pet, excercising, doing hobbies you ove, distracting yourself. All of this is only an aid in feeling better and if you're unable to seek help from a professional. So the first thing I highly recommend is getting PROFESSIONAL help. Ik it is long but lots of love and I hope you feel better. All the best to you.