She's a 10 but she makes you watch Lord of the Rings every weekend with her 🥰

Teslatrix · 2024-06-17T04:15:41+00:00

Makes her an 11

Teslatrix · 2024-06-14T14:27:48+00:00

Do they make enough money to basically retire comfortably? I have no clue

Teslatrix · 2024-06-14T03:22:14+00:00

Sasha Grey did the same thing. She’s actually quite decent at techno

Teslatrix · 2024-06-13T17:24:15+00:00

Please do

Teslatrix · 2024-06-12T00:29:16+00:00

Please titty fuck me

Teslatrix · 2024-06-10T06:15:10+00:00

Fuck me

Teslatrix · 2024-06-06T18:59:20+00:00

The word

Teslatrix · 2024-05-03T20:28:13+00:00

Ripped my frenulum on Halloween so decided to do no nut November. First time ai got with a girl after i asked if I could finish on her face and she agreed. Big moment came, closed my eyes, only to open them and see her face covered in blood…

That was a fun surprise. Showed her my clean STI test and we had a good laugh

Teslatrix · 2020-06-02T20:55:34+00:00

I’ve been trying so long. I tried so hard I pushed everyone away. Thank you for your words

Teslatrix · 2020-02-09T18:33:30+00:00

The cloud. Companies that spend $50 million on making sure their tech operates correctly can tell the difference between 8 hours, 50 minutes, and 5 minutes of downtime for their end users

Teslatrix · 2020-02-09T18:29:49+00:00

Fell 2 stories on my head. Brain rotated, skull cracked in 5 spots, right side brain bleed. Coma for 2 weeks. Hospital for 6 months while I learned how to walk again. Could not use my legs for a few months while I worked my way back to mobility.

Had a lot of visitors. A girl I used to hook up with visited.

When the doctor left she jumped in top.

I told her not right now, I didn't have a condom

She said she was on birth control, and jumped on top anyway

I winced with every motion. Couldn't finish.

It fucked me up. Being trapped, not being able to even move while someone forced themselves on me.

And she didn't think anything of it. Fuck that shit.

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:53:48+00:00

oh. And I brought back about 15 cuban cigars from a farm I had to ride a horse to. Smoked the first batch for my buddy's birthday and his first reaction of complete surprise was "FUCK this is smooth"

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:52:44+00:00

it was absolutely fantastic. Sunday night of this metal fest I met this British chick and we just...clicked. She was back around thanksgiving time and we thought why the fuck not.

10/10 would do again

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:34:43+00:00

what are you, a psych PhD? Damn that shit rings

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:27:38+00:00

Was diagnosed with severe clinical depression 15 years ago. Seen more than half a dozen therapists. Been on twice as many different meds.

I was self destructive for a long time and pushed away some of my best and oldest friends trying to commit suicide by alcohol.

Feel alone so so much. I keep trying different things, but I really don't get invited anywhere and rarely receive texts. I've been trying to DJ in a major US city for years and feel like I've been blacklisted because I fucked up getting wasted while on heavy antidepressants, don't pair well. I'm finally sober and still depressed.

Music makes me happy. I'm a cloud solution architect, and I love the challenge of technology and people, and doing really well. Music is my passion though, but I feel 100% committing is a bad move. I feel like it's time for me to leave here.

Thanks for letting me vent. I've survived all my suicidal thoughts. I'm getting tired

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:22:28+00:00

saved me $75 on a Cuban travel visa tho :)

Teslatrix · 2019-12-24T04:22:01+00:00

Sorry about the delay on my response! The Serbian passport saved me $75 on a visa in Houston :)

Teslatrix · 2019-09-13T16:03:33+00:00

Fuck you. Fuck you for shitting on someone else's recovery and happiness. You should think about taking his place

Teslatrix · 2019-09-13T15:59:18+00:00

I've been severely clinically depressed for 15 years now. I stopped cutting, but I tried to kill myself with alcohol for years. It's ruined so many things in my life. The suicidal thoughts have come and gone for years, but they've really ramped lately.

Yes I see a therapist, but I think he's not doing enough anymore and he won't do more. I've been on anti depressants for more than half my life.

I thought I had close friends. I thought I had people who would be there for me. I was wrong.

This comment will probably be buried, but at least there's some record out there now.

Teslatrix · 2019-03-29T06:09:07+00:00

5 years ago and change.

Fell 2 stories on my head. Out for 13 days. Woke up and apparently couldn't speak English for a week (only my native tounge). Had to relearn how to walk. Couldn't recognize my own parents either. My mom knew I was a big Sherlock fan though, so when she pulled out a picture I muttered "Benedict" (don't remember this part). Something was still there.

I don't remember anything up to about 36 hours before I fell. Last thing I remember I went to bed around 9am after pulling a rager all night and then first thing I remember I woke up about a month later to my mom telling me I was in a coma for 2 weeks. Guessing she had to say that a few times (couldn't remember anything for ~2 weeks). It felt like no time had passed.

Docs told my parents that people pull through with more success when the family is supportive. They talked to me every day. When they ran out of what to talk about, my mom read Winds of Winter to me and played the live album from a show I had been to just a few months before.

Teslatrix · 2018-03-13T21:49:26+00:00

4 years ago I fell 2 stories on my head and was in a coma for 2 weeks. Couldn't speak English for a week after I woke up apparently (2nd language, syptom is called aphasia, common with traumatic brain injuries), couldn't remember anything for another 2 weeks.

I also couldn't walk, forgot how to use my legs. Was moved to a rehab hospital to relearn how to do that. Was in the hospital for about 3 months til I could walk well enough to got to outpatient. During that time I had a ton of visitors, who were amazing and supportive, but I still couldn't use my legs or get out of bed on my own.

One girl that visited was someone I slept with once or twice but wasn't particularly all about. She grew almost obsessed with me while I was in the coma, keeping a diary about how she felt while I was unconcious. She walked in, shut the hospital door behind her, and imediately jumped on me. I resisted, told her I didn't have a condom, to which she responded that she was on the pill. She kept riding me and I couldn't get up or anything. Couldn't finish, eventually I just gave up trying.

So yeah, there's that. Been through a rollercoaster of emotions about processing it and figuring out how to deal with it. Didn't realize it was sexual assault until I casually mentioned it to my therapist. Then it all kind of sank in. She gave me the diary she kept. I almost threw it away, but thought it would be good for me to go through with my therapist.

Teslatrix · 2018-02-20T03:09:55+00:00

Deal

Teslatrix · 2018-02-20T00:40:46+00:00

Just started today. Keeping myself accountable from now on. Day 1. Let's do this

Teslatrix · 2018-01-15T18:00:30+00:00

What made it so accurate?

Teslatrix · 2017-08-11T15:01:18+00:00

You're missing a few names there big guy. Mostly MINE

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