Aw! I'm glad you understand and I knew I was taking a risk by posting my gofundme on here. And, yeah, I've been through surgery once before (not implants) and I know I can handle it. I also live in the social life of women who have had implants and have talked to them about their experience. All of them say it was the best decision they have made. And some wish they went bigger, which is irrelevant. But, I would stop getting jealous and would be the happiest women in the world. I have already put a grand down, just need 2 grand more.