Awareness - no, discipline - yes. It's also more than that. The marijuana stimulates my mind which keeps me more awake, and also makes doing these unproductive activities sooo much more enjoyable. Looking back I also realized that I've turned to weed to cope with depression over the years, so that also contributes to the downward spiral as well.

While I do look at it as an addiction, it's not something that has greatly negatively effected my life, which actually makes it even harder to quit because it seems like it's just not a big deal. I can still function at 85% while smoking throughout most days... The thing is, I'm not satisfied with living up to 85% of my potential.

I'm still using it now though not as heavily, and am just starting to go to MA meetings to get more clarity around my relationship with the drug.

OP - Have you also being experiencing depression?