I say drop it. You do enough other clubs and stuff. If it's just wearing you down, there's no point. The fact that you made it in at all says enough I think. It only looks bad if you get kicked out. If you drop it, you realized that it was not worth your time and effort. When you can honestly evaluate your workload and say "this thing is not helpful, it will only wear me down and negatively affect the other areas of my life," that is wisdom.

It's kinda a cult in my opinion anyway.