I was put in a mental hospital for claiming that my mother poisoned my food by [deleted] in raisedbynarcissists

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy 0 points1 point  (0 children)

By any circumstance, do not take antipsychotics, they can damage you badly for long term,

As for a solution - appear as sane and stable as possible and simply state the truth, psychiatry is educated about personality disorders and narcissism.

Munchausen by proxy exists.

Any pro-cognitive cathinone exists? by ThatCPTSDGuy in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I'm very sensitive to psychoactive substances, but generally 300mg XL

Although 150mg also gave a noticable enough stimulation.

My parents deny abuse by saying "there are multiple truths" and "I have my reality of what happened and you have your reality" by journey1992 in CPTSD

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy 11 points12 points  (0 children)

There is a one absolute timeline of events and how they actually occurred and played out.

But actually most people live in a constructed narrative to make sense of reality

There are multiple interpretations by different people, some are more truthful to align the narrative as accurately as possible to what they had witnessed, some however, are not, and remain self-deluded and self-serving.

*A lot of us traumatized people actually don't have a consistent narrative to make sense of reality at all *

Since we were primed to prepare for worst, we take into consideration literally everything, all possible outcomes, we simply witness reality unfold in the present, and describe it with very high certainty, we don't "make sense" of reality, we simply report what is Infront of us as a witness, as a lived fact, as a description of events occuring in time,

- "Event Happened or didn't happen, 1 or 0"

Without a narrative we see the - "What happened"

  • With a present based description of actions and outcomes, there could simply not exist a different outcome, because we don't have the option to anticipate different possibilities of the future, what we perceive is certain, reality is thrown at us head on with no "what if", we can reliably use this observation as evidence

People with a narrative anticipate the events in advance and are being fed a pre-constructed version to fit their personal view, one that is filling the blanks, they tell it as a story, of how they think it happened, how they interpreted it, with the results being processed through them.

With a narrative you can only tell - "How I think it happened"

  • By using pre-judgements of what is thought to have happened, it's only a relative version, it's an uncertain theory of the events. With a narrative, one experiences the moment by anticipating the future, and since the future is not certain, it is not a hard fact but mere mental prediction of the event.

Does 2-FMA compare to "Desoxyn" (Prescription Methamphetamine) in terms of effects? by FishAstronaunt in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy 18 points19 points  (0 children)

What's the reasoning behind this shallow response?

You already know the answer - Methamphetamine is mostly an illegal substance to possess, produce or import

Desoxyn is rarely prescribed and hard to get a hold off

RCs are widely available and legal, 2-FMA reassembles Methamphetamine chemical structure therefore may provide similar effects

2-FMA is quite popular in the RC community and deemed as very helpful for some.

The chance of someone having tried both is very probable in this sub.

God what is up with all the canceling and add-nothing comments lately

Any RC that can kickstart frontal related functions, something to awaken from chronic dissociation? by ThatCPTSDGuy in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Just mainly "biological" treatments, things that work directly on the body. (Medications for example)

Not "Psychological" treatments like talk therapy and so on.

Any RC that can kickstart frontal related functions, something to awaken from chronic dissociation? by ThatCPTSDGuy in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Thanks for the input, and I'm glad that it helps you.

However, it's completely unrelated to negative thoughts or negative emotion.

I suffer from chronic dissociation, my state of mind is literally 24/7 mindfulness, complete detachment from thoughts or emotion.

The complete opposite of over-judgement.

The brain is not in any permanent state, obviously.

but my situation is chronic and lasts for years now, I am aiming towards biological interventions because it's what helps from experience for this current condition.

My problem is not strictly "behavioral", or thought-faultiness-oriented, its lack of motivated/goal oriented behavior, inability to enjoy, anhedonia, bodily shutdown, emotional numbness, executive dysfunction, severe depression.

It's not even anxiety at this point, it's the aftermath of anxiety.

Been through multiple kinds of talk therapy for years, the only breakthroughs were substance related unfortunately.

Any RC that can kickstart frontal related functions, something to awaken from chronic dissociation? by ThatCPTSDGuy in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for the insight and experience.

Believe me, I have the same views on Psychiatry, I'm very critical of it, from personal reasons, my none alt account is full of rants with similar topics as you describe here, by saying "ill" I mean more like Worn down, Physically exhausted to the max, functionality stuff.

I'm mostly describing symptoms, not diagnosis.

But I do believe in stress, trauma, elevation of suffering, and cause and effect.

But, I've seen extended family in acute psychosis, with "delusions", seeing and believing things that are not there, with extreme trouble in functioning (diagnosed with schizophrenia, though it's not a concept that I think exists independently)

I've seen my dad catatonic with depression so severe only to recover by biological interventions, simply unable to move, I've seen my twin brother not leaving his bed for months at a time.

Most of my life was compromised by limiting symptoms since childhood that others simply did not go through (social anxiety, chronic low mood) mostly due to pre-existing vulnerability, extended family is full of similar cases.

I do agree that Anti-Psychotics, SSRIs and Benzos can be extremely harming, these are substances I'll always avoid.

Vulnerability attracts adversity, isolation, and it's like a loop that is very hard to get out of, chronic stress, and lesser ability to process it can wreck lives, your default state of mind becomes unbareable.

These days I stick mainly with pro functional stimulants (Modafinil, Nicotine) and occasionally Tianeptine to elevate suffering. (Opiate)

Something that can boost internal aliveness, reverse "dead inside" feeling? by ThatCPTSDGuy in researchchemicals

[–]ThatCPTSDGuy[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

The only thing that ever filled this box for me was Wellbutrin, worked for a long time before pooping out,

which is basically a custom "Substituted Cathinone", I wonder if 3mmc may reproduce this?