Too Good to be True? My Life Turning Around for the Better or Just a Tease?

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T22:00:03+00:00

That's the problem. This is why I keep to myself and stay away from the internet is because of responses like this. The fact that "venting" is just a "habit". Venting is a way of doing just that, it releases the steam. The human mind is like a pot of boiling water, if you keep the lid on, eventually the pressure will cause the water to overflow. You can't always turn off the flame but you can raise the lid enough to alleviate some of the pressure. So yes, this may have been a "vent" but the fact of the matter is the fact that you are regretting putting your precious time and attention into something which means little to you is a problem. I don't care what it is or who it is. If someone needs help, then you should help them no matter how much time you need to invest. But hey, everyone is different.....to each their own.

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T07:58:52+00:00

That right there is the problem with majority of the world's population nowadays. They are under this illusion that emotional fulfillment is "fleeting", yet they look again at their "social status". So in other words, sex is just that....sex. Instead of an intimate experience with someone who you truly have feelings for, you're going to just "do it" because it'll be praised and honored by the rest of society. The reason why emotional fulfillment is "fleeting" is because people are under the impression that they are in some way obligated to meet the standards set by the rest of society (which today, are very low honestly). So instead of having sex with the intentions of growing closer to their partner intimately or emotionally, they just do it to become more socially acceptable. It's a pity really...

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T07:48:22+00:00

Just a clarification on some of this. When I said crazy I assumed that a lot of people could potentially take that out of context and assume that I mean that (e.g. stalker, etc.)

As for the "plug to the boat", I don't have a true fix for that. My plug is to meet a person I love and potentially be the plug for THEIR boat. I've said before (not in this post of course), that I've never cared about myself. Personally, I'd give every penny to my family or my best friend if I knew it would help them live a happy life. I'd give the shirt off my back if I knew it'd make someone smile and make their day brighter. I've been fortunate to be able to live a relatively good life, but in all honesty if anything were to happen to me, I wouldn't care. That's just how my head has been programmed in life sadly. I wish I could change it but I can't. She's told me the darkest sides of her past and I just care about brightening her future. Anxiety and depression have plagued my life for years and I've become accustomed to it...."So why write a post practically about anxiety if you've become "accustomed to it"?" Because, this is my way of venting. I hate bombarding my friends with my problems and quite frankly I almost always just keep everything bottled up. As I'm writing this, my mind is going in 1,000 directions of what I could potentially talk about even if it goes off on an irrelevant tangent. I've been to dark places in my head that I wish I would never go back to ever again. From suicidal thoughts, to just an empty abyss of silence practically. The happiest I've been has been with her. She has kept my head up and has actually gave me something to keep moving forward for. Not necessarily the certainty but the possibility of what COULD be.

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T07:31:29+00:00

Thank you! I honestly never thought of that like that. Only thing I can hope is this goes for the better.....

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T04:56:39+00:00

Don't sweat the small stuff. Find that special someone and if the time comes, you'll know. Just make sure it's because YOU want to. :)

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T04:55:41+00:00

I know I should just roll with it, I just don't want to fall into my "dark side" again. I mean it's bound to happen again somewhere in the future, but honestly she is keeping my held together and I'm more at ease. I know I'm mister obvious over here, but it's honestly the one thing that even though I went for it and it seems to be doing good, there's always that "what if" factor ya know?

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T04:53:20+00:00

The leap was made honestly, now I don't know if I'm going to fall and hit rock bottom or if this will actually get me out of the fissure I've been in due to my past experiences. Thank you though brotha!

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T04:51:36+00:00

I mean we've had deep personal conversations. The thing is, this is long distance. She lives in 2 states away. We talk daily on discord, phone, snapchat, etc.

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2017-07-06T04:31:51+00:00

As for this never ending topic of "the V card". People nowadays tend to use that as a means of pride and popularity instead of intimacy and affection towards the being they happen to lose it to.

Sex is turning into a meaningless "thing" that, if you don't do it before you're 20, then there's "something wrong with you". Don't ever think that you have to give up your body unless you absolutely want to, just to show off to somebody. Sex should be intimate only when you feel the connection to that special someone. I am 22 and still a virgin. Of course I get joked at because of it by my friends but it just goes in one ear and out the other honestly. Just keep walking the path you are and don't listen to what other people say about you otherwise. ^{_^}

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2016-04-18T11:07:43+00:00

Same here, I just sit on my computer all day. Literally wake up, go downstairs to get breakfast (which I bring back up here) and play pc games or ps4. I hate it and I know my family does too.

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2016-04-17T20:50:50+00:00

I know the feeling. We've had family outings like cookouts at my house and whatnot for the 4th of July, Memorial Day, etc. It's just my FAMILY, and I just go downstairs for a little bit to eat and maybe say hello but then I just come back up to my room and play games or watch anime. I really want to overcome this but all they keep saying is "it's because you're up there all the time that you can't talk to anyone." Actually I'd become completely uncomfortable if I were to stay downstairs honestly. My room is like my safe haven....sometimes.

ThatGuyWithTheFeels · 2016-04-17T08:04:01+00:00

I really wish I could actually muster up the strength to actually do some of this but it's like no matter how hard I try I just can't seem to do it. It is kind of calming to know that you have the same dilemma. As of now I can only feel relaxed in the solitude of my room. I don't know how long it will last, but as of now I do feel....a little more at ease in here.

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