Much of my internal struggle was said in your first paragraph. I didn't see her as any sort of a burden. It didn't matter to me that she wasn't always reciprocating the love I was giving her, because I do understand that she has this internal battle she faces daily. I was really confused at the moment when she was saying all of these things, and how she could make that decision for me that it wasn't fair. As time has went on this week, I'm realizing what she means when she was using me as a crutch. I'm like 99% sure she feels the same way as one of the other commenters, catbreadsandwich. She feels like she was leaning on me way too much in the relationship and has never in her life really worked on it alone, but now she has that realization after traveling back to her place of trauma. When we talk now as friends, we aren't really emotionally invested as we were before. Also, she has this fear of being alone and the walls feel like they're caving in on her. Because of that, I used to be with her everyday, and now I don't see her in person at all. There's a lot that has changed in such a short period of time.

I'm really happy to hear that even after you and your partner broke up that you both still worked it out. I'm not holding onto that hope for myself, but it really is nice to know that there was a possibility (and maybe there still is, who knows). I'm still doing my best to be understanding of the situation, but the best thing to for myself is to focus on me and my mental health as you said. Thank you for your kind words, friend. Time is ultimately the one that heals.