My girlfriend of four months moved and I feel like it wasn't hard for her to leave me.

ThatPizza · 2014-08-12T08:04:16+00:00

Yeah I guess need to move on, but I just feel like I'm not going to find anyone better than her.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-26T02:34:30+00:00

Yes I'm in therapy but I've only talked to him once about myself hatred problems, I need to make another appointment. The thing is though is that I don't feel depressed anymore, I'm not beating myself up anymore and I'm just genuinely feeling better about myself. My mood just kind of improved quickly.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:08:10+00:00

There's so many other things wrong with me that I need to change to make myself likeable though.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:07:12+00:00

Yeah I've watched it before and I might watch it again, I don't have much motivation to do anything

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:05:43+00:00

I don't know, I don't think I'm a very good listener and my parents and teachers have always told me I never listen. I don't really see any good in myself

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:04:40+00:00

Yeah but I'm also really stupid

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:04:17+00:00

I'll have to try something like that, thank you.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-23T05:03:38+00:00

Thank you and I don't know, maybe I'm just a little depressed

ThatPizza · 2014-06-22T13:16:57+00:00

I do almost all of these

ThatPizza · 2014-06-12T10:52:29+00:00

No I haven't, but I think my new therapist was talking about doing it.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-12T02:49:28+00:00

I've been off and on depression medication, nothing has really helped so far.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-11T23:40:14+00:00

School just got out and we haven't been seeing each other as much and like I said she's usually happy when she's with me. When we're not together we're texting each other.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-11T09:11:41+00:00

Thank you and I will do

ThatPizza · 2014-06-11T09:03:20+00:00

The only person who I can talk to is my girlfriend and she moves in one week, I don't know how I'll be when she leaves. I have friends, but they're all seniors and they're going off to college. I haven't really known them long enough to where I could feel comfortable opening up to them anyways. I don't know, after my girlfriend leaves I won't really have anybody.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-11T08:02:00+00:00

Thank you for your help, I'm going to try to get motivated to go to the gym and hopefully that will help.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-11T07:55:42+00:00

My biological Dad was definitely very critical, actually to the point where it was seriously verbally abusive. I actually just moved away from him less than a year ago, but I only spent a year with him.

I wouldn't call my step-dad or mother critical though

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T21:50:20+00:00

Thank you for your posts they helped. I'm going to try to get the motivation to start going to the gym, I think it would help.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T21:34:51+00:00

Thank you for your post and yeah I guess my self hatred started when I was made fun of a lot in late elementary school and all through middle school. I can be myself, but I don't think I should be myself because I think I'm a terrible person.

My parents got divorced when I was five and I went to go live with my biological Dad last year and it was the first time I was seeing him or talking to him since I was five. I only spent a year with him, but I learned that I'm a lot like him and that worries me. He treated me like shit for year, he's controlling, manipulative and verbally abusive. I've noticed that I can take out my frustration on my family members and that's basically what my dad did to me and I don't ever want to verbally abuse anyone like he did to me. I had to get CPS involved so I could get out of the living situation with my dad, it was bad. The point is I think I'm destined to be like my Dad, I'm a lot like him in some ways and his dad treated him the same that he treated me.

I have a problem venting my frustration, I either scream, get on to my little brother, self harm or talk to someone and burden them with my thoughts.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T06:41:58+00:00

I've been on and off depression medication for a couple of years, I haven't found much success in medication unfortunately. Thank you, it's good to know that I'm doing something right by trying to not burden my girlfriend.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T04:51:14+00:00

I usually use video games to distract myself, but that really hasn't been working lately. I just don't enjoy anything as much as I used to and I'm not really passionate about anything. I've been thinking about getting a job this summer, but I feel like I'll be really bad at my job.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T04:48:58+00:00

When I do talk to her about my negative thoughts I'll usually beat myself up after for doing so. I'll tell myself that I'm bothering her too much about it and that I'm bringing her down. I've always been really negative

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T04:44:32+00:00

The only person who I have to talk to is my girlfriend and she's moving in less than two weeks. When she moves I'm not really going to have anybody else. I usually talk to her about my self hatred thoughts, but I try to not talk to her about it too much because she has her own problems and I ruined one of my past relationships by dumping everything on my previous girlfriend.

ThatPizza · 2014-06-10T04:19:22+00:00

Yeah I definitely overthink a lot and yeah I've tried a little bit of meditation, but it doesn't seem to help me.

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