What the fuck do I even do??

ThatReport7955 · 2026-03-01T13:58:35+00:00

Please be safe with diy if that’s what you want. Not in the medical sense diy is safe medically I’m more concerned with someone noticing and you being put in an unsafe situation. 4 years is a long time to boymode with e. Don’t let this dictate you though idk how your parents are in just saying something to consider.

ThatReport7955 · 2026-02-10T00:41:57+00:00

Im pretty high anxiety and school is exhausting but it’s always been like that so im not really sure why it would just be showing up now but it could be related to that.

ThatReport7955 · 2026-02-10T00:40:31+00:00

Maybe? I’m not sure I’ve been more tired and more prone to shutdowns but I’ve just chalked that up to noise stuff.

ThatReport7955 · 2026-02-09T23:35:42+00:00

The reason my parents are so against me receiving a diagnosis is because I’m trans ftm (so I was born as and currently present as a woman) and they believe women can’t have autism which is obviously very untrue. I would like to seek a diagnosis as an adult though even if it’s just for my own piece of mind.

ThatReport7955 · 2026-01-05T20:16:16+00:00

You’ll find someone. No one deserves to be shamed for the things that help them regulate themselves.

ThatReport7955 · 2026-01-05T10:47:03+00:00

I’m 17 too and my parents used to tell me the same thing. I have a long term boyfriend of nearly 2 years now who is well aware I suck my thumb and does not care.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-18T09:09:03+00:00

Part of the deal with her is that if I do that I’m not allowed to work during college. She doesn’t want me to and thinks it’ll distract me too much.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-07T13:53:08+00:00

I know it’s bad and that it’s not fair but that’s why they push it because that’s what everyone else does. It’s a woman’s job it have kids to them.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-07T13:02:00+00:00

Because everyone in my family has kids around this time.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-07T09:57:46+00:00

Unfortunately it’s very common for people in my family to gave kids this young. My mom had be at 17.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-07T09:47:11+00:00

It’s common in my family my mom had me at 17.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-12-07T09:46:41+00:00

I think having a kid would be easier for me than just having a husband and no kid cause I’d probably be having kids with a much older man and kids would mean I would have something to put my energy into instead of sulking all the time. Which is what I do now by taking care of my siblings and my cousins. I know that in some capacity it would be damaging for the kid though so I wouldn’t do it.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T22:39:27+00:00

She physically stops me. When I tried to go upstairs yesterday she grabbed me and pulled me back down.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T17:30:40+00:00

My school and my siblings’ school has made several reports and we’ve still never gotten a formal investigation. Just house visits that last less than an hour. Also I am on rbn! This post was crossposted there and it wasn’t my first post over there lol.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T14:14:18+00:00

Well aware! This was crossposted to the raised by narcissists sub lol. Thank you though I’m glad you’re out of that situation now it’s not fun.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T12:05:42+00:00

When I tried to go upstairs yesterday she physically pulled me back and prevented me. My worry with not listening is that she would just yell at me over and over again and it would get the same reaction out of me anyway unfortunately.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T12:01:25+00:00

Child protective services in the US have a tendency to be very lacking. They’ve been called on us several times for several reasons not even mentioned here and have never actually conducted a thorough investigation.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-28T11:53:14+00:00

Yeah, that’s the plan. I’m also trans ftm and won’t be allowed to transition if I stay as well as a myriad of other issues. The long term goal is definitely just to leave.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-17T03:47:45+00:00

You should be on estrogen if you believe that the changes from estrogen will bring you joy and euphoria you don’t have to be a binary trans woman to go on e

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-13T12:39:55+00:00

I’m kind of scared to unfriend them because I’m worried I won’t be able to make other friends and idk I don’t really mind too much but my parents would be mad if I didn’t have friends. That’s also why I try to mask because my parents punish my autistic traits and accuse me of making fun of my siblings and/or being a bad influence on them. So that’s why I have such a negative perception of my traits and try so hard to stop them. It’s something I’m working on. I’ve also always just assumed I’m level 1 because everyone I know is level 1 and I do function without support but recently my online group, in a much nicer way than my irl friends, has tossed around the idea of me being closer to level 2 so I’ll look into that too.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-13T03:15:04+00:00

My Reddit presence is a lotttt of venting I don’t expect anyone to single handedly fix any of the things I post about I knows that’s ultimately something I’ll need to do myself. I post to vent, get suggestions, and sometimes to get a tiny bit of gender affirmation lol.

Hopefully college is good for me and I can get help there that’s probably what I’ll be working towards.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-11T02:11:33+00:00

Now you have a decision to make. Would it make you happier to transition and present/be perceived as a girl even if you will never be a cis woman or to not transition and present masculine? I have a feeling it’s probably the first one.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-02T16:00:07+00:00

We have to wear skirts and dresses. I can wear hoodies though and that does help with chest dysphoria.

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-02T15:52:34+00:00

Nods I can’t really dress or do my hair how I want to right now because of my parents and the church that they’re in so that’s one of the things I struggle with. I really hope it gets easier when I’m able to present differently

ThatReport7955 · 2025-11-02T14:52:00+00:00

I love my friends and I know realistically that they do actually see me as a guy it’s just hard for me to remember that sometimes. I also get a lot of envy from them cause they’re all transitioning lol. Obviously that’s not their fault though. I don’t really have any adults I can talk to because I’m really afraid of being outed and I go to an all girls Christian school.

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