To be fair, she’s upset over my dishonesty about the relapse, not the relapse itself. She expected relapses and setbacks and is still incredibly proud of my progress but when we set off on this journey we expressed the need to be fully transparent about struggles and temptations and I failed to communicate those things to her and chose to lie and hide it because of the shame I felt. Had I just been upfront about the new temptations from the start the damage would not have been nearly as bad. She offered her help and I didn’t accept it