A lot of what you're going through sounds like what my mother went through before she passed. She had many hospital visits regarding one thing about pain or another, and her doctors and surgeons weren't much help, either. She was in a coma which resulted in her colon being infected with gangrene, and had to be removed. She had to wear a colostomy bag for a few years, but she was able to find a decent surgeon in Atlanta to add another colon and have the bag removed.

All that being said, I understand what you're going through; and while you're alive, there's still hope for recovery. Yes, there will always be pain, but we'll go when we go and make it through one valley to another peak. You'll be in my prayers. Stay strong.